00:00The journalism is not a crime, being an anchor is not a crime, why they treat me, why they
00:09try to kill my father?
00:27My male colleagues go to office, they just show their card, I was working here, I'm member
00:34of this office, the TV, they said okay you can go.
00:39So I go there and when I arrived I just covered my face with the mask and I tried to enter
00:46the gate, one of them just called me from back, hey ladies, where are you going, I said
00:55I'm member of this TV, this is my ID card, as my colleagues show their, male colleagues
01:01show their ID card, they can enter to the office, you said everything is okay and nothing
01:08is changed, they said no, that was just an announcement, you are a female, you have to
01:15go back, now this is Islamic Emirate, you have to stay at home and I said no, they said
01:25what they announced, I believe that, they said to the world and the world just accept
01:30that and they have to do that what they said, they said no.
01:33One of them said if you don't leave this place, one of them came, one gunman will come and
01:40kill you.
01:55When they send the photo of my, our house, which we lives there before and my parents
02:04was live there, that was just shocked me and my teams, my very nice and kind and lovely
02:17team, they just support me and they arrange the passport, the visa, the everything and
02:26they just moved them from Afghanistan to another country.
02:30So fortunately now they are not in Afghanistan, but unfortunately they are still not safe
02:39because even in the third country, the Taliban can have access to them.
02:47Too many times I try to just leave the media, just for saving my family's life, but my father
02:57says Shabnam, if you leave your job, if you just shut your mouth, we are not friend anymore.
03:10If you are my friend, if you are my daughter, if you are member of my family, promise with
03:14me you have to carry on.
03:22I really miss them, I really miss them.
03:27I really want to hug my mom, hug my father once again.
03:34The journalism is not a crime, being an anchor is not a crime.
03:41Why they treat me, why they try to kill my father?
03:44I really want to hug my mom once again.
03:48My last words for my mom was, mom, I wish to see you once again and I wish to kiss you
03:58on your forehead once again.
04:01If I'm alive, I really want to be with you once again.
04:08I'm not very old, like I'm 26, now I'm 26, when I came here I was 24.
04:17I was not the person who takes care of all this stuff, looking after two families, looking
04:28after ourselves, myself, my family, my siblings.
04:31It's too much for me, it's too much for me.
04:34But my family and my friends support, they give me positive energy and that's why I'm
04:42alive yet and I'm doing my job, everything.
04:47But just I wish, I wish, I just want from my God to help me to just be able to hug my
05:00mom, hug my parents and no danger from me.
