00:00I am strong and radiant because I can cry.
00:16I think you're very radiant.
00:17Like, you know, even when you walk around,
00:20there's a radiance around you.
00:22Wow. Thank you.
00:23That's very sweet.
00:24How?
00:25How?
00:26Because I don't spend time with that many people.
00:28I don't. I like to work not that much.
00:34And I like spending time with myself.
00:36I feel like, you know, there's a lovely line
00:38that somebody told me that, you know,
00:41you have to fill up your own bucket.
00:44Like take care of yourself.
00:45No, it's not to take care of yourself.
00:47It's, you know, you have a bucket.
00:49Either it's a pain bucket or it's a happiness bucket.
00:52So you have to fill up your own bucket
00:54with whatever you want to, if it's pain,
00:56if you're going to fill it up with pain
00:57and if you're going to fill it up with anguish
00:59and suffering and whatever,
01:00you're going to overflow that out into the world.
01:03And people are going to feel that around you.
01:05And when you fill up your bucket
01:06with all the good stuff, the good stuff just comes out.
01:10I think that's really the theory behind radiance.
01:15What's in your bucket?
01:17My bucket is filled with a lot of stuff.
01:19My bucket is filled with a little bit of,
01:22a little bit of everything really.
01:24It's got sadness.
01:26It's got truth.
01:26It's got anger.
01:27It's got compassion.
01:28It's got kindness.
01:30It's got love.
01:31It's got light.
01:32It's got a little bit of everything really.
01:35There's no sadness that people pick up from you.
01:39That's also a part of me.
01:40Of course, if I can make you cry on screen,
01:43aren't you picking up on my sadness?
01:45But in person, like right now, I don't feel that.
01:48Like I feel you're like really strong and radiant.
01:50I am strong and radiant,
01:52but I am strong and radiant because I can cry.
01:55I am strong and radiant because I can feel that
01:59and I can feel it completely
02:01and I can let it go also completely.
02:03Is there something in your life that's still at this one?
02:05Because after everything you've accomplished
02:07and I feel you're like pretty self-actualized as well.
02:10Do you have any like thing in your life
02:12that's a source of a little sadness?
02:14Of course, I think everybody does, don't they?
02:16Everybody does.
02:18And if we don't, wouldn't we be at some point
02:21either I would have gained nirvana
02:23and I'd be sitting under a tree
02:24and not having this conversation with you
02:26or I'd be like, I would be a very, very different person.
02:30I would be a very different person.
02:31So yeah, I have, you know, of course you have,
02:35you have sadness, you have anger,
02:36you face all of it.
02:38You have doubts, you have fears,
02:39you have, you know, all of that.
02:42And all of that is very much who I am today.
02:46I am very much,
02:47I'm looking at each and everything very clearly.
02:49I'm only asking you this from a perspective of learning.
02:53But these things you see...
02:54Pay me.
02:57I'm very expensive, I'm a therapist.
03:01But are you comfortable sharing any aspect of that sadness?
03:06Like what could possibly be sad in your life?
03:08And I'll tell you why.
03:08Because lots of people look at your life from the outside
03:10thinking that everything's perfect.
03:14I aim for it to be.
03:16I aim for it to be.
03:17But yes, there are times that things that sadden me,
03:21fights that I've had,
03:22and, you know, memories,
03:25lots of memories and...
03:27Like sad memories?
03:28Of course.
03:30You know, my life has not been,
03:32my life has been a life.
03:34My life has been very much a full
03:36and a very, very complete life.
03:39But yes, I believe in my privacy.
03:41And I don't think that everybody needs to know everything.
03:44I feel that, yeah, it's fine.
03:49I feel if you're looking at me,
03:52you're looking at me as a person,
03:54as an icon, as a personality.
03:56As my childhood crush.
03:59Stop.
03:59It was my childhood also.
04:00So shut up.
04:03So yeah, I feel that I've grown.
04:06And I hope and pray to God that I've grown.
04:10I wouldn't want to be the same as I was when I was 16 years old.
04:13I think differently.
04:15I behave differently.
04:17I have very, very,
04:20like I liked myself at 16,
04:22but I love myself at 48.
04:25I love who I've become today.
04:27I love my life.
04:28And, you know, I've worked very hard
04:30to come to where I am today.
