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“Taking My Power Back 💥 Watch Me Rise”

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Sometimes, life takes your energy.
Today, I’m taking it ALL back.
💥 No more settling.
🔥 No more silence.
✨ This is the comeback you didn’t see coming.

If you’re ready to reclaim your confidence, this one’s for you.

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00:00Hi, my name is Liz and I am the author and designer of the journal The Wizard Liz's Guide to Inner Healing.
00:08This is a journal I started creating six months ago and this is a journal that is very, very close to my heart.
00:17As maybe many of you know, I am a person that is dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder
00:24and I started my healing journey for my traumas about six months ago.
00:32Now, when I started the journey, what I initially thought was that, you know, I just have to do therapy and that's it and I'll get fixed.
00:45But that was not the case and to be honest, I did not even know that I was traumatized.
00:50I just thought that whatever, it doesn't matter because when you are living in a situation where daily abuse is happening,
01:00where you're being mentally and physically abused daily, you're not thinking, ooh, I'm traumatized.
01:07The only thing you are thinking is I have to survive the day and I have to make sure I get through this day.
01:13It really hit me when my abuser left the house.
01:19I was, I think, 19 or 18 years old when the person left.
01:25And then I really realized that, oh, wow, something is really wrong with me.
01:32Because the way that I would deal with my friendships, the way that I would deal in relationships, it was not normal at all.
01:41And I could see that there is a serious problem.
01:44Now, then, when I really even moved countries and got out of the whole house and everything,
01:55I could clearly look at it and be like, wow, I literally went through so much stuff that I did not deserve.
02:04And I'm just, even till today, I'm just like, wow, Liz, you're so strong.
02:13And I really, really am.
02:16I just never realized how I was in such survival mode.
02:24Let me tell you guys why this is such something that's very close to my heart.
02:34So, like I said, I have dealt with extreme childhood abuse in my teenage years as well.
02:41And I am not talking about a spank here or spank there.
02:46No, no, no, I'm talking about like several times I've come very close to not being alive anymore.
02:59There was, you know, you know why this is so hard for me to talk about?
03:07Because, first of all, I'm a very private person and I do not like it when people perceive me as weak.
03:13And me talking about, um, uh, talk about, uh, very traumatic events, um, makes me feel weak.
03:21I don't want pity.
03:22I don't want people to be like, oh, Liz, I'm so sorry for you.
03:25I don't want that.
03:26I want people to look at me and be like, wow, you know, like you're strong.
03:31You, you really survived something.
03:34Um, but I, somewhere I think because I have this platform and I talked with my mom about this
03:41and my mom was like, Liz, your whole platform, the reason that you created this platform was to be a voice for the voiceless.
03:49And so all these people that DM you about your abusive households that don't know how to get out
03:54and all these things, and you want to keep quiet when they don't have a voice and you do, you have a platform.
04:02You can share your story and you can become, you know, like a sort of strength for them.
04:11Um, but I think that's all easier said than done because me sitting right here, I don't want to say anything.
04:20I don't want to tell you guys anything because this is so, um, I don't know.
04:29Um, you know, like, I've always wondered, like, how can a person be so cruel to a child?
04:37I don't get it.
04:39Like, why?
04:40I've always wondered that.
04:42And six months ago, I was very angry and upset because I kept having nightmares about one of, like,
04:48I have specific things because my childhood is very black for me.
04:51I don't remember anything from my childhood anymore.
04:55I remember that I would, uh, I would get beaten daily.
04:59Um, I, uh, like, I would get yelled at.
05:02I was always terrified to come home.
05:04Um, I remember having, um, my school forcing psychiatrists on me.
05:10Every week there would be a psychiatrist coming because obviously they saw the bruises.
05:15I would not talk because if there's anything that I was more ashamed of or,
05:21um, than, than he was talking about what happened to me because I was embarrassed.
05:28Um, and I, I just thought I need to keep this secret because my abuser told me that otherwise,
05:36uh, he would take my life.
05:38And that was, uh, yeah, that was also, you know, and I wondered so long, like, I was so angry at first
05:49because I was like, how could you do that to a child?
05:54And how could you, like, you know, like, guys, I'm talking, like, I would, like,
05:59I have stitches on, on my, on my, the back of my head and stuff from, um, yeah, from severe
06:09injuries to my head.
06:10Um, I always wondered, like, how, uh, far does it have to go before somebody notices,
06:18like, a doctor or my school knew, but I would not tell anything.
06:23Um, but, you know, when the ambulance took me, how many times before they realized that
06:33I did not, like, run into a door, how many times before they realized there's something wrong?
06:43Um, but I think when, when, when you are not talking about it, when you are not communicating,
06:50um, what's happening, they can't really do anything.
06:55Because even if somebody intervened, I would much rather live in a household like that than
07:03go into foster care because that's all I knew.
07:08I, I, literally, the abuse was, was familiar to me and that's all I knew.
07:15I, I, yeah.
07:18Also, like, it, it was always, like, really unprovoked.
07:22If I could tell you, like, the devil in human form, this person was the devil in human form.
07:28Uh, and it was not only me that got abused, like, everyone that I loved got abused.
07:34And I think you, as a child, seeing that injustice happening to your family, where you're feeling
07:39so powerless because you cannot do anything to help them, that really hurts your soul.
07:44And then when I got older, I became this whole control freak.
07:48Like, I needed to control everyone around me and every single thing because in my childhood,
07:52I had no control at all.
07:55I remember, like, even in my teenage years, like, come on, like, I would go to work, right?
08:01Um, and I would come home from work and, um, this person would beat me up because I stayed
08:10an hour later at work.
08:12But obviously, I needed the job because I needed the money.
08:15And then my, my employers would get mad at me when I wanted to leave earlier.
08:21Um, because they, they, they were like, you don't want to work.
08:25No, I wanted to work, but I was scared to death to go home because there's somebody literally
08:29waiting to beat me up because I was an hour later.
08:34And just when I was younger, um, I, I saw injustice happening to my mom.
08:41Um, I would constantly defend my mom against this person.
08:46Um, and my mom told me this is where the hate started, uh, from this person towards me because
08:54I would defend my mom.
08:55But I, I just, I just, you know, I, I, I've had this urge to protect my mom because I love
09:03my mom so much.
09:04And she has been through the worst and I don't think she deserves any of that.
09:12Um, and me as a child, seeing that, that really hurts me.
09:19Um, I remember every time she would leave the house, um, she would leave, then I would leave
09:25with her.
09:26I would just sit on a bench somewhere outside with her, just next to her.
09:32So make sure she's okay.
09:35Um, if I'm telling you that I saw horrific things that not only happened to my loved ones,
09:46but horrific things that happened to me, like, I'm not exaggerating at all.
09:55I just, I can't talk about it.
09:59I really am trying and I can't.
10:02I started the, my healing journey six months ago and, and I, I found this love in journaling.
10:09I, I found this love in, in writing down my emotions because I, I could really feel that
10:15in that way I can connect to my inner self, to my inner child, to really understand what
10:21I'm feeling.
10:21Um, and to be honest, this helped more than therapy and anything.
10:27Um, but I would go to bookstores, I would go to shops and I would look for that journal
10:31that has questions about your inner child, that had questions that, where you could really
10:36connect to yourself.
10:37And I could not find that journal.
10:39So I decided six months ago, you know what, I am going to create that journal.
10:45I'm going to make sure that I put the questions that, where people can really, uh, connect to
10:51what happened to their childhood, what they were like as a child, who the person was that
10:56hurt them.
10:57Um, and I, I really far formulated these questions so well that, uh, I 100% think that if anyone
11:05is dealing with, uh, childhood trauma with even abuse till this day, I honestly, truly
11:13think that the journal can really help because I even wrote to myself in this journal and it
11:21really brought up some emotions, but I felt so much lighter after writing it down.
11:26It has inner child affirmations.
11:29It has, uh, different practices you can do to connect to your inner child.
11:36Um, and it has beautiful questions.
11:39Um, so yeah, my journal is available on Amazon.
11:44I will link the journal in bio.
11:47I have this one question in my journal that says, if you could say anything to the person
11:52that hurt you the most, what would you say?
11:55And when I was writing in the journal, I, I wrote it all down and I am going to read that
12:02to you guys.
12:03So the question is, if you could tell the person who hurt you the most, everything you wanted
12:09to say, what would you say?
12:11I wonder if you care, I wonder if you know what you did and how much it affected me.
12:22Six months ago, when I was creating this journal, I was thinking about all the things I would
12:28write down.
12:29Things from the young age of three till 18 that I remember vividly.
12:41Things that I've never expected to haunt me and have nightmares about in my early twenties.
12:48And no, it never just goes away.
12:54I could not pray it away.
12:57No amount of therapy made it go away.
12:59And every time I tried to ignore it, it would show up in my relationships, friendships and
13:05the way I treated myself.
13:10I learned that I have to accept it, but not be a victim of my circumstances.
13:18Six months ago is also when I started my healing journey.
13:23And today I can proudly say that I genuinely don't care about you.
13:28All the years of daily physical and emotional abuse, and I can proudly say you did not break
13:37me.
13:40Six months ago, I wanted to expose every cruel and inhumane thing you did to me.
13:47But today I realize it's not my place to expose your sins.
13:53And if I'm being really honest, I pity you.
13:57You had the same childhood as me, filled with immense abuse.
14:03You never got to experience what love is.
14:07But see, that's not an excuse.
14:10Because of you, I never got to experience what love is.
14:15Yet here I am, acknowledging my flaws, reading the books, going to therapy and journaling.
14:24Isn't it ironic?
14:27That I grew up to become the person that I think you need the most?
14:33I remember from an early age trying to understand why I was not lovable or even worthy of being
14:41treated as a human being.
14:43But I also understood from an early age that I would never get the answers to those questions.
14:55And I'm okay with that now.
14:56I really tried to understand you, but everyone has a breaking point.
15:03I'm sorry your parents didn't love you, but I didn't do that to you.
15:11I'm sorry you went through the exact same mental and physical abuse you put me through, but I didn't do that to you.
15:21I'm sorry you grew up to be a cruel person, filled with hate in your heart, but I didn't do that to you.
15:31When a parent fails to love a child, the child does not stop loving the parent.
15:42The child stops loving itself.
15:44After years of hating my face, hating my body, thinking I'm not smart, I should be more serious, and nobody will ever love me because you told me so,
16:00If there was any self-love or confidence I was born with, you definitely took that from me.
16:18I had to completely learn how to be confident, how to deal with my anxiety and depression, how to love myself, and how to function in society.
16:30I had to re-parent myself.
16:35But one thing you did not and will not take from me is my strength.
16:42And no, I am not strong because of what you did to me.
16:46I am strong despite of what you did to me.
16:52All the love I was supposed to be given, I give myself today.
16:57And I created a platform where I inspire others to do the same.
17:04You will find it shocking to see how many people do think that I am worthy, lovable, and smart.
17:12I get daily messages from strangers filled with immense love and gratitude.
17:22It wasn't that hard, was it?
17:23One thing I am grateful for is, you showed me exactly what not to do.
17:37I will continue to do the work and fix every part of me that you tried to break.
17:42And one day, when I am ready and decide to have a child, I will make sure that my child knows what pure love is.
17:52That physical violence is not needed to get my point across, and that it is okay to communicate instead of yell, hit, or even worse.
18:02All the things you took from me, I will give my children and myself twice as much.
18:16I am not angry, nor am I sad.
18:23I have no feelings towards you.
18:26My main focus is giving myself all the love I know I deserve.
18:32And you?
18:34I will let God deal with you.
18:36This face that you would abuse daily until it was black and blue.
18:48This face that you could not stand to look at.
18:52I will make sure that you see this face on every screen you look at.
18:58I promise you that.
18:59Mark this day as the day I took my power back.
19:07Guys, thank you so much for being so patient with me.
19:10I promise to upload more regularly right now because, honestly, I don't have...
19:18I feel indifferent completely.
19:20I don't care about this person anymore.
19:22And really, honestly, journaling really helped me.
19:26This, honestly, truly did help me to write my feelings down.
19:32To just get everything off my chest that I cannot say out loud.
19:38I can just write it down.
19:40So, yeah.
19:42Just thank you for being patient with me.
19:44Thank you for understanding me.
19:46And thank you for the immense love I get from you guys.
19:49I feel hurt.
19:50I feel valued.
19:51And for that only, I can't thank you guys enough because I feel like you guys gave me my life back.
20:01So, thank you so much.
20:05And I will continue to make each and every one of you proud.
20:10I just hope that we can heal together.
20:12I hope that we can grow together.
20:15And I think that if we do the work, we'll all get there.
20:21Thank you so much.
20:22I love you guys.

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