00:01Beauty standards now compared to when I was younger, it's so different. We didn't
00:06have social media when I was in high school. There's so much pressure and I'm
00:09so glad I didn't go through that because I didn't wear makeup back then. I go out
00:13without makeup in public almost every day that I don't get my makeup done. When
00:18I'm not filming or when I'm not doing stuff like this, you will see me out in
00:22my gym clothes with zero makeup on, but my eyebrows will be done. Never leave
00:27your house without your brows done. So now we're gonna start with my makeup
00:31removal routine. I appreciate all of you complimenting my hair, but I do pay for
00:36it. So the first things first is taking these extensions out. Getting the hair
00:42out of the way.
00:51Here's the fun part and I'll warn you I am not cute when I take off my makeup. Here
00:55comes the wipes. I started wearing makeup more consistently when I was 18 years
01:01old. I didn't know what I was doing. My looks were really harsh because I was big
01:05on black eyeliner and people were like, oh she just looks like a bitch all the
01:08time.
01:11So when I usually wash my face I use, you know, a sink with water and stuff like
01:16that, but sometimes I don't have that luxury because I'm on set and I know I'm
01:20gonna be way too tired when I come home. So a friend of mine introduced me to a
01:26cleansing water makeup remover thing and this is on my very, very lazy days.
01:31Here you go.
01:34So next I'm gonna use Witch Hazel. I'm just gonna say it. Listen, bullet's trick in the book.
01:39It works. I tend to feel the most insecure once a month around that time. You girls know.
01:46And I just go really down about myself about everything and I cry. I journal. I
01:52call my therapist and I ask my boyfriend, do you love me? Do you think I'm pretty? Tell
01:58me I'm pretty. I take my moment and then get up and go back out there and try again.
02:03I use vitamin C as my first little moisturizing serum. When I turned 28 my skin
02:10changed and I had to find a whole new routine. Little did I know that your hormones
02:14change every seven years. Age is great. After the vitamin C I actually do have a
02:20different moisturizer that I use. So I have huge eyeballs and I love mascara and
02:29eyeliner and eyeshadow and smoking them out and what happens? They get in your eye.
02:33And so now I have to start using eye drops because I can even feel it right now. I hate
02:39it.
02:39So this is embarrassing and wish me luck. Oh my God.
02:49And next I realized I still have residue. So I have to get my makeup wipe that I'm still using
02:55and wipe a little bit before I use my eye cream. The person who taught me to do makeup was
03:02actually my sister.
03:03She was always obsessed with makeup. So she learned early on. And then eventually I was about 20 years old
03:09and she was tired of the way I was doing it.
03:12So she sat me down in her bathroom and that's where I learned how to do makeup. My sister. My
03:17little sister of all people.
03:19Like I'm supposed to be teaching her. And finally eye cream. I have not found what eye cream I like
03:25yet.
03:25So I have been using samples and I just want to say something. Do not buy anything unless you know
03:32what works.
03:33And you just tap it, tap it, tap it. So you look pretty and we don't want wrinkles.
03:38I learned how to take care of my skin when I was about 12. I was coming home crying a
03:45lot because of my acne.
03:46So my mom actually took me to the mall one day and introduced me to Clinique.
03:52It was the first brand that I ever used and it really helped clean up my face.
03:56Which is when I learned about soap that you actually use for your face and toner and lotion and all
04:01that stuff.
04:04And that's that.
04:06It's not someone's makeup look or how much they contour or the lip that they use that matters.
04:11It's really the heart of someone.
04:13I'm glad that my mom didn't allow me to wear makeup when I was younger.
04:18Because it really taught me to appreciate who I was as a person and not the face that I put
04:24on.
04:24To me, I feel like my most beautiful when I feel like myself.
04:28For example, I'm here and I'm wearing sweats at Refinery29 and I feel more myself than ever.
04:33That's why I go out without makeup a lot because, you know, if you can't accept me at my natural,
04:38then you can't accept me at my glam.
04:41Or you can't have me at my glam. You know what I mean.
04:42And now I want a glass of wine because I feel like I'm going to bed.
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