00:00What was the point where you started to feel that it wasn't right?
00:03Like one morning, I woke up, I had to go training. This is when he'd stopped playing me.
00:06I remember just looking in the mirror. I mean, it sounds dramatic, but I was literally staring
00:10in the mirror and I was asking if I could retire now at 24, you know, doing the thing I
00:17love.
00:18For me, that was heartbreaking.
00:23It's always been me against myself and everything. I was winning the fight,
00:27smiling, showing that I was happy. But inside, I was definitely, you know, losing the battle.
00:33Trauma is trauma and your body registers it in the same way no matter what it is.
00:37If you knew about my life, you would understand that a little bit more.
00:40I want to help other people to know that they're not alone in the feelings they've got
00:44and doesn't make you weep to get help.
