00:06so I didn't expect to go into retirement alone and I am I'm just gonna figure out
00:10what to do from here I don't feel joy a lot I'm pensive and I have anxiety mr.
00:16Egan had this type of unstructured creative space that you got to be with
00:21someone you really admire problem is that he's trying to save other people who
00:25really needs to be saved as he needs to save himself we had this little high
00:29school garage band I was like I know my music teacher plays trombone and all
00:34of a sudden I'm 18 years old I got a record deal and I'm in a ska punk band
00:38with my fourth grade music teacher my problem in life was I thought I could
00:42have it all perfect teaching career music career good parent good husband and
00:48days are not 72 hours long you can make amends and you can apologize and you can
00:55try to be better I gotta be able to forgive myself have you done work on
01:03actually forgiving yourself none of your business I'm writing an album by myself
01:08for the first time and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared not everybody wants
01:13to see us what are you most afraid they're gonna say about you I think I
01:18have to just be okay with sucking if you start over analyzing every moment from
01:22your past it's paralyzed you know it is what it is I'm here like this at 57 years
01:29old for a reason
