00:00two years after my son was born, my sister and her boyfriend convinced me to go over to their house
00:05to have fun, to have a good time. I didn't want to go because I knew that the neighbor had
00:10a crush on
00:11me, but she convinced me to go, and the neighbor that had a crush on me went to bed, and
00:16the neighbor
00:16that I didn't think anything of, I was, he had not anything, and he held me down on concrete floor
00:24and did what he wanted. For the longest time, I excused that as just, because I didn't think that
00:30I really had any right to say no. A few months later, I met this man. I got into a
00:34relationship
00:35with this guy, because he'd been a friend of mine for seven years, and I thought I knew him, and
00:39then
00:39as soon as I was alone with him in New York, all of these things that he supposedly liked about
00:44me,
00:44he hated. I wasn't allowed to read. I wasn't allowed to write. I wasn't allowed to use my phone.
00:49He got me isolated in New York, because I had nowhere else to go. Every time I would say no
00:53to
00:53him, he would start massive fights to the point where I became afraid to say no to him. That's
00:59how my daughter got here, because I didn't want more kids after my son. I wanted just one,
01:04so when I got pregnant with her at first, it was very bitter, very angry, very scared. I'm grateful
01:09I have her, regardless of how she came about. Well, so is my son. I love being a mother, and
01:13I love my
01:13kids. My kids are probably the only reason I am still alive. I'm learning that I deserve safety.
01:20I've been single for about seven years now.
