00:10Hello. How are you? The world asks. I know my lines so well I could say it in my sleep.
00:18If I could sleep. If the tape of every past mistake and heartache could pause for long enough.
00:25There is a breath between good and how are you. A hiding place for the things I want to say.
00:31Like, the world is dying. And all I can think of is how bad it still hurts that I lost
00:37my best friend.
00:38How afraid I am of falling behind. How much I judge this body I should love that doesn't look like
00:44that.
00:45How I should be more okay than this.
00:51Sometimes I want an off switch. A drain for the thoughts I am drowning in.
00:54Strong hands to lift the weight from my shoulders.
00:56I tell my friends I am enough on my own. Because I am supposed to be.
01:01I say that I am okay. Because I am not entitled to be broken.
01:22I want a subway map of my invisible scars.
01:27A way to understand how being left as a child is connected to my fear of goodbyes.
01:32Or how much distance there is between you and me.
01:35Now that we are not traveling the same line.
01:42I want Leonard Cohen to be right.
01:45That cracks are where the light gets in.
01:47And not where the light spills out.
01:51I want to choose to see poetry in the mess.
01:55To look closely at my subway map of scars.
01:59And see every glowing line leading home to me.
02:31I want to choose poetry in theanno.
02:33Theottiler said I am so glad.
02:33That struck me that it is in the valley.
02:33I want to deserve it asust시� wears a extrapolateруllande.
02:34Number two, let's remove the highest room around and having a decrease in Alguns.
02:38And I want to be right.
02:38And I want to go now.
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