00:00Anger to me was embarrassing because it reminded me of my dad who had no control.
00:05And I used to always be like, I'm not going to be like him.
00:07And what happens?
00:08Yeah.
00:09There you go.
00:09You're doing exactly what he was doing.
00:11So I always felt shame and all of that.
00:13I hated it.
00:14It made me hate myself, which made me go darker, which made me get angrier because I didn't
00:18know how to get out of it.
00:19It was just this spinning down thing.
00:23So it was never like the grit and the oyster that makes the pearl?
00:26Like that rage didn't fuel your creative stuff.
00:30So when you got rid of it, were you afraid?
00:32Like, I just got rid of a bunch of my creative fuel.
00:34What am I going to do?
00:35I mean, you're not a one trick pony, but you know what I mean?
00:37I felt liberated.
00:39It was just like, it would be like, okay, you're going to write a song on this piano, but you
00:44can only use these notes, you know, as opposed to you can use the whole piano now.
00:49You know what I mean?
00:49So it's like, I can still believe me, dude.
00:52I can blow my top like anybody.
00:54You know what I mean?
00:55I can still lose my shit.
00:57I know how to do that.
00:58I got 50 something years practice that I would like to learn how to do these other things.
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