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00:00The call from my mother came in just as I was signing off on a $10 million patent licensing deal.
00:06She gave the order the way she always did.
00:08Serena's getting married this weekend.
00:10You need to be there.
00:12Came my brother Elliot's disdainful voice, and I hadn't hear him for a long time.
00:16Hazel, you'd better wear something decent.
00:17The Ashfords are old money. Every guest at that wedding matters.
00:20My childhood friend Ethan Cole laughed somewhere nearby.
00:23It's been 10 years since we graduated.
00:25If she'd worked half as hard as Serena and gotten into an ivy, be living alone in some basement, scavenge
00:30-inspired bread just to get by.
00:33Then Melanie Reed, the girl who used to be my best friend, spoke up.
00:39Come on, you guys. Can we stop coming at Hazel every chance we get?
00:43Look, she went the farthest and earns the least out of all of us.
00:46She was probably too embarrassed to face us, so she's been avoiding us for 10 years.
00:51Hazel, Serena's marrying into the Ashfords.
00:53If things in New York aren't working out, come home.
00:55Have the Ashfords find you something local?
01:00Anything's better than digging through trash.
01:03I lowered my gaze, hiding my amusement.
01:05The Ashfords were East Coast old money, the kind of name people spoke with.
01:09For three months, he'd practically camped out in the lobby and still hadn't gotten the meeting.
01:13My family thought I was barely scratching going Queens.
01:16In reality, I lived in Cambridge, a 15-minute walk from my MIT lab.
01:20She was probably too embarrassed to face us.
01:23Serena's voice pulled me from my thoughts.
01:25Her voice was warm and soft.
01:27I even put aside a little something.
01:29For your flight home, I'll give it to you when you arrive.
01:35With everything Serena's paying for right now, how can you actually accept it?
01:40Just because Serena pulls $200,000 a year doesn't give you the right to guilt her into paying your way.
01:47I didn't ask her to.
01:49Oh, come on, you guys.
01:51Hazel's finally coming home.
01:53Don't scare her off.
01:56At 18, yes.
01:58I really had been avoiding them.
02:00Senior year of high school, Serena had transferred in from California and slid effortlessly into my little circle of three.
02:06Me, Ethan, and Melanie.
02:08Just like at home, I quickly became the invisible one.
02:11We'd be walking down the hallway, and out of nowhere all three of them would stop at the same time.
02:16Ethan would tip his chin up slightly.
02:18I'd just be standing there.
02:19At first, I'd ask what they were laughing about.
02:22A few times.
02:23They always said it was nothing.
02:25Eventually, I stopped trying to force my way into a circle that didn't want me.
02:29I started avoiding them instead.
02:31Then MIT's early went into the lab.
02:34I didn't have time to avoid anyone, and I hung up the phone, gripping it tightly.
02:41Ten years ago, on the day college decisions came in the mail, Serena got into Yale.
02:46I got one rejection letter and a waitlist notice from the local community college.
02:51My parents booked a two-week trip through Europe with Serena and Elliot.
02:54They handed me $50, said it was for two weeks of groceries.
02:58They didn't even pretend to feel bad about it.
03:00It wouldn't be fair to the kids who worked hard if we took the underperformer along.
03:04I wanted to tell them that kids shouldn't be ranked by their grades,
03:06but the scar above my eyebrow reminded me what happened when I spoke up.
03:10So I took the 50 bucks and didn't say a word.
03:12Just like I swallowed the fact that I'd won gold at the USAMO,
03:16and that MIT had already offered me early admission with a full presidential scholarship,
03:20I never told them.
03:21A knock at the door.
03:23Emma, my assistant, stood in the doorway, her voice careful and respectful.
03:27Dr. Whitmore, Dr. Langley called personally this time.
03:30He's asking if you could spare 30 minutes for Mr. Ashford.
03:34Ashford Industries had already sunk half a billion dollars into their BCI program.
03:38It had been stalled for two years on one specific neural signal decoding algorithm.
03:43I happened to hold the patent that would unlock it.
03:46Emma hesitated.
03:47Would you like me to turn him down again?
03:51No.
03:53Tell Mr. Ashford I'll be in Newport this weekend.
03:56Friday.
03:56I flew into Providence and drove down to Newport.
03:59No one came to meet me.
04:00I took a black car service straight to my parents' house.
04:03Melanie opened the door.
04:04She did a small double take, something flickering behind her eyes.
04:09I almost didn't recognize you.
04:12The city's been good to you, huh?
04:15That outfit doesn't exactly scream two grand a month take time.
04:21I didn't respond.
04:22I walked past her into the house.
04:24Serena's eyes tracked to the watch on my wrist, then swept over my coat.
04:29She pressed her lips together.
04:31Hazel, come on.
04:32We're family.
04:33You don't need to put on a show like this.
04:35How many credit cards did you max out?
04:38Ten years away and you haven't picked up a single skill.
04:40Just the ego.
04:43Impressive, Hazel.
04:44You used to be so plain in high school.
04:46Now you've learned how to work a knockoff.
04:51My gaze traveled over them.
04:53Ten years, it had changed.
04:55Elliot's hairline had retreated visibly.
04:57Melanie had lines at the corners of her eyes.
05:00Ethan had put on weight.
05:03Serena was the exception.
05:04Porcelain smooth, immaculate, styled to within an inch of her life.
05:09But one thing was the same across all four faces.
05:12That same faint, casual condescension when they looked at me.
05:15I raised an eyebrow.
05:17From the day I graduated until now, I have never once mentioned my income to any of you.
05:25I have never sent any of you a private message complaining about money.
05:31So where exactly are you getting your numbers from?
05:37Nobody had an answer.
05:38My mother came out of the kitchen carrying a serving dish.
05:41She glanced at me.
05:42With no college degree, what kind of job could she possibly get?
05:47In New York?
05:49Three grand a month.
05:50Tops.
05:52Mom, don't say that.
05:55Hazel's doing the best she can.
05:58By the way, I already promised to help with her flight.
06:02She walked over to wedding supplies and picked up a small white envelope.
06:06She returned and held it out to me.
06:09Here you are.
06:10Everyone turned to watch.
06:15You really didn't have to.
06:17I wanted to.
06:19I told you on the phone that I'd put something aside.
06:22I know coming all the way from New York must have been difficult for you.
06:27Please take it.
06:28We're sisters.
06:29Elliot folded his arm.
06:30She said the money you do.
06:31At least you can decide specifics in gratitude.
06:34Take it, Hazel.
06:35She's only trying to help.
06:37I accepted the envelope.
06:39It weighed almost nothing.
06:40I opened the envelope.
06:41A single coin slipped out.
06:44For several seconds, no one moved.
06:46At last, it fell flat beside my shoe.
06:48One cent.
06:51Ethan turned his face away, but not before I caught the smile pulling at the corner of his mouth.
06:56Elliot stared at me, waiting for my reaction.
06:59Melanie pressed her lips together.
07:01Serena lifted one hand to her mouth.
07:03Oh my god!
07:05I must have picked up the wrong envelope.
07:08She looked down at the penny, then back at me.
07:10Her expression softened into wounded concern.
07:13Hazel, please don't take this personally.
07:16She bent slightly.
07:16I've been handling so many wedding envelopes.
07:20I must have mixed them up.
07:22Thank you.
07:23Her eyes were already beginning to shine.
07:27I really did put money aside for your flight.
07:30I looked down at the penny.
07:32Ten years ago, $50 had been enough for my family to leave me alone for two weeks while they toured
07:37Europe.
07:40Now one cent was apparently enough to prove Serena cared about me.
07:48I bent down and picked up the coin.
07:50The room went quiet again.
07:52I walked over to Serena.
07:53Then I took her hand and placed the penny back in it.
07:56Keep it.
07:57Her fingers curled reflexively around the coin.
07:59I looked at the white roses.
08:01With everything you're paying for right now, you probably need it.
08:04More than I do.
08:06Serena's face stiffened.
08:07Then her eyes filled with tears.
08:09Hazel, I said it was an accident.
08:12Elliot stepped forward immediately.
08:13What the hell is wrong with you?
08:15His voice rose.
08:16Serena tried to help pay for your flight, and this is how you thank her?
08:19You think it's not enough?
08:20Ethan shook his head.
08:22A penny's still a gesture.
08:23Melanie moved to Serena's side and placed a protective hand on her arm.
08:26Serena actually cares about you.
08:29Did you think for one second how giving it back would make her feel?
08:33Serena lowered her eyes to the penny in her palm.
08:36I got so excited when I heard you were coming home.
08:40I picked up the wrong envelope.
08:43I already said I was sorry.
08:46Please don't be upset, okay?
08:51My father clapped me on the shoulder.
08:53All right, all right.
08:54We're family.
08:55Serena's been so busy lately.
08:56Mistakes happen.
08:59Let's just eat it.
08:59Eight dishes.
09:00Ethan and Melanie both cooed over them.
09:02Mrs. Whitmore, you remembered I love the ribs.
09:04You made the lemon cream salmon again!
09:06Mrs. Whitmore, that was my favorite last time.
09:09I glanced across the table.
09:11Every person at the table had their favorite in front of them.
09:14Even the golden retriever curled up at the foot of the couch had a small bowl of beef set aside
09:18by my mother.
09:19Every person except me.
09:21At the table, my mother sliced the tenderest piece of prime rib and pushed it onto Serena's plate.
09:26We've made a few real estate investments along the Newport coast over the years.
09:30One property for Elliot, one for Serena, one we live in, and a smaller one we're renting out.
09:38She looked up at me.
09:40Hazel, Elliot and Serena both went to top schools.
09:44It's only right that they get property.
09:48If you got one too, when you didn't even finish college, it wouldn't be fair to them.
09:53I set down my fork and let out a small laugh.
09:55So the way this family divides property is by GPA, not by how many biological children you have?
10:00The table went dead silent.
10:02My mother's face flushed red.
10:09Hazel!
10:10Ten years, not so much as a phone call.
10:12This house and you walk into this house and start attacking me?
10:15If I'd known you'd turn out this ungrateful, I should have given you up for adoption at the hospital!
10:19Exactly like ten years ago, the day my mother saw my SAT score report,
10:23The mug flew straight at my forehead, hit hard enough to split the skin above my eyebrow.
10:27Blood ran down the side of my face and dripped onto the hardwood.
10:31She'd worn the same expression.
10:32The one thing I regret in this life is not giving you up at the hospital.
10:37It would have saved me the embarrassment.
10:39Ten years was long enough to give up on whatever thin sliver of maternal love I'd once hoped for.
10:43Right now, I didn't feel a thing.
10:46My father tried to smooth things over.
10:49You know how your mother is.
10:50Doesn't mean don't take it personally.
10:52She says things she doesn't mean.
10:53Don't take it personally.
10:54Serena, I got my hands on a bottle of 25-year-old single milk through a friend.
10:59We'll give it to Mr. Ashford tomorrow.
11:01He'll love it.
11:02Serena smiled tightly.
11:03Something guarded moved behind her eyes.
11:05Dad, Mr. Ashford might not be able to make it.
11:10My father froze.
11:12What do you mean he's not coming?
11:13It's Julian's wedding.
11:15How is he not showing up?
11:16Serena sighed.
11:18Julian said there's an important guest flying in from out of town this weekend.
11:21Mr. Ashford has to host them personally.
11:24He can't get away.
11:25Elliot frowned.
11:26Who is this person?
11:27More important than his own grandson's wedding?
11:30I'm not exactly sure.
11:32Julian just said someone from the East Coast.
11:34Apparently, Mr. Ashford spent months working his network just to get this meeting on the calendar.
11:42Melanie looked baffled.
11:43What kind of person makes an Ashford wait that long?
11:45Do you know what that family is worth in New England?
11:48Exactly.
11:49Nothing tops Serena's wedding.
11:53Don't say that.
11:54Julian told me this person holds a technical patent.
11:57That's exactly what Ashford Industries needs right now.
12:00Mr. Ashford said if they can close this deal, the family is set for the next decade.
12:05She paused.
12:06Then, with studied casualness, she glanced at me.
12:10Hazel, you've been out there a while.
12:12Have you heard anything about who this might be?
12:15I shook my head.
12:16Not really.
12:17Elliot let out a short, derisive laugh.
12:19She never finished college.
12:20What would she have heard?
12:23Serena, stop dragging her into every conversation.
12:26She can't keep up.
12:28I kept eating and said nothing.
12:30What was I supposed to say?
12:31That the person Mr. Ashford had been chasing for months was me?
12:35They'd laugh in my face and hit me with a, come on, don't flatter yourself.
12:42After dinner, I sat around for a while and was about to get up when my father stopped me.
12:48Hazel, your mom cleaned out your old room a few days ago.
12:50You haven't been home in ten years.
12:52She won't say it, but she's missed you.
12:54New sheets, new pillowcases.
12:55She picked them out herself.
12:56Right on cue, my mother came out of the kitchen, wiping her hands, her voice flat.
13:04Melanie's taking the guest room tonight.
13:07Hazel, you can crash on the couch.
13:09My father's smile stiffened on his face.
13:11Melanie looked up from the couch, glanced at me.
13:14Mrs. Whitmore, please, I couldn't.
13:16I can just book a vacation rental.
13:19You come home so rarely.
13:21I'm not letting you stay at some stranger's place.
13:24Hazel's family.
13:25She can take the couch.
13:26I stood next to the dining table and said nothing.
13:29The summer after I finished SAT, Melanie stayed over.
13:33I gave her my room and curled up on the living room couch all night.
13:36The AC broke that night, in August.
13:39I woke up sweating three times.
13:41By morning, my shirt was soaked through and my neck was cramped from the couch arm.
13:45When my mother saw me the next morning, all she said was,
13:48You should have grabbed a blanket from the closet and slept on the guest room floor.
13:52Guest room has the window unit.
13:55Melanie stayed over a few more times after that.
13:58Once, I stood in the doorway of my own room and watched my mother bend over the guest bed,
14:03carefully smoothing fresh sheets, a soft smile on her face.
14:06I stood there thinking I looked like a guest who'd wandered into the wrong house.
14:13Hazel?
14:13My mother's voice pulled me back.
14:15She was frowning.
14:17That's all right.
14:17I already booked a hotel.
14:19Her face darkened.
14:20What is that supposed to mean?
14:22You'd rather stay in a hotel than at home?
14:25Is the couch beneath you now?
14:27I picked up my coat and started toward the door.
14:30I sleep better in my own bed.
14:32Ten years away and her attitude's out of control.
14:35Every single thing has to be a fight.
14:37The door closed behind me.
14:39Ten years ago, the girl who spent that night on the couch would have cried into her pillow,
14:43unable to understand why her mother was kinder to other people's daughters than to her own.
14:48The Hazel of ten years later doesn't cry over that.
14:50The deposits kept coming in, patent licensing fees, equity distributions, royalty payments.
14:56Each one trailed by so many zeros I'd stopped counting.
15:00She'd stop needing anyone else to be good to her.
15:02She was good to herself, generously.
15:07The next day, the most famous wedding venue in Newport.
15:11The Chandler at Cliffwalk.
15:13My parents kept glancing anxiously toward the entrance.
15:16Elliot, Ethan, and Melanie huddled together, strategizing in low, urgent voices
15:21about how to approach the Ashford's, which conversation topics to lead with,
15:26which family members to prioritize.
15:29Every word out of their mouths was calibrated to impress.
15:32Halfway through the toasts, Serena stood up from the head table,
15:36walked onto the platform, and picked up the microphone.
15:40Everyone, thank you so much for being here to celebrate Julian and me today.
15:45While I have the mic, I wanted to take a moment to do a little something for Hazel.
15:50Her smile was radiant.
15:51A little matchmaking!
15:53I stiffened.
15:54Every head in the room turned toward me.
15:58A surge of anger hit me.
16:02Hazel Whitmore, 28, high school diploma,
16:06currently working as a barista in New York.
16:09$18 an hour.
16:12But she's a wonderful person.
16:14So grounded.
16:16So genuine.
16:17If any of the single gentlemen in the room tonight are interested,
16:20please come say hi.
16:21She gave a small bow, humble.
16:24Don't hold her background or income against her.
16:26For my sake, as the bride, please give her a chance.
16:29A balding man on the right side of the ballroom stood up
16:32and waved at me over his beer belly.
16:34I manage the deli counter at a wholesale club.
16:3742, divorced, three kids, what do you say?
16:39Another man stood up from the corner.
16:41Hi, Hazel.
16:42Rutgers, class of 09.
16:44I sell auto policies for insurance company.
16:46Never been married.
16:47Still living with my mom.
16:48But that's temporary.
16:50I pulled my brows together.
16:51I'm not doing this.
16:57My mother's face turned an ugly shade of red.
16:59She lowered her voice to a hiss.
17:02These men are decent guys.
17:04They don't even care that you never went to college and you're being picky.
17:09Give someone your number.
17:10Do not humiliate Serena.
17:12I looked up at the stage.
17:14Serena was biting her lower lip, her eyes glossy,
17:16doing that thing she'd always done, the wounded doe.
17:18It was always the same move.
17:20Eighth grade, she'd worried I was studying too hard for the SATs,
17:24so she'd accidentally thrown out my entire set of prep books.
17:27High school, she'd worried I was getting too vain,
17:30so she'd accidentally used the money I'd saved for six months to concert ticket.
17:35Always packaged as concern.
17:36Always cruelty wrapped in something soft.
17:39And every single time, everyone took her side.
17:42Like right now, her voice cracked.
17:45Hazel, is it that you don't like anyone I picked out?
17:49But given your situation,
17:52I don't know what else I can do for you, my wedding,
17:54besides trying to help at my wedding.
17:57Hazel, Serena was up half the night worrying about you.
18:00Worrying about you finding someone.
18:02If they aren't your type, just take the number and figure it out later.
18:05Why are you making a scene in front of all these people?
18:09The whispers rippled across the ballroom.
18:11The bride went to an Ivy League school,
18:13associate at a top consulting firm.
18:15Compared to that, her sister is...
18:17High school diploma, barista in New York.
18:20No wonder the family's stressed.
18:23Wait until she finds out how much weight the Ashford name carries.
18:27She's in for a rude awakening.
18:28My mother's finger jabbed at my face, trembling.
18:31Today is Serena's wedding.
18:33You just have to ruin it.
18:35Get out!
18:36Elliot stood up, his voice cold.
18:38Hazel, leave.
18:40You're not welcome here.
18:42You're just jealous she landed in Ashford?
18:45Get out already!
18:47Melanie tugged at my sleeve, whispering.
18:49Hazel, just apologize.
18:52If they throw you out, how are the Ashfords ever going to hook you up with a job?
18:57I pulled my arm free and turned to face the room.
19:02So you're all sure?
19:05You want me to leave?
19:06They didn't know I'd already confirmed the meeting with Mr. Ashford.
19:09The location was this wedding.
19:10My mother pointed at the door.
19:12Out!
19:12I'll pretend I never had you!
19:15On stage, Serena dabbed at her eye.
19:18Hazel, this day means everything to me.
19:21You've made it impossible for me.
19:24Please just go.
19:25Julian's face hardened.
19:27If you're not willing to accept Serena's kindness, and you insist on embarrassing her,
19:30then leave.
19:31I raised an eyebrow.
19:33Okay.
19:34I stood up cleanly and headed for the door.
19:36That was when hurried footsteps came from the entrance of the ballroom.
19:40Dr. Whitmore!
19:41Wait!
19:44She cannot leave.
19:45Every head in the room whipped around.
19:47Sterling Ashford, stripped of his usual composure.
19:50His voice was raw with urgency.
19:52The bride can leave.
19:53The groom can leave.
19:55But Dr. Whitmore.
19:58She does not.
20:02The balding man who'd volunteered his wholesale club resume shrunk half a step back into the crowd.
20:07The five-to-five underwriter tipped his glass to his lips and drained it, his ears burning red.
20:12In the corner, one guest nudged another, unable to keep the shock out of her whisper.
20:16Wait, I recognize her now.
20:18That was her on the top-tier academic journal's cover last month.
20:21How did I miss it?
20:22How could you have caught it?
20:24The bride kept saying, my sister is a barista.
20:26Even if she looked familiar, you wouldn't have made the connection.
20:29Two guys just tried to slide into her DMs.
20:33Someone at my table called her stuck up.
20:35At her level, of course she doesn't hand out her social media account.
20:39The side doors of the ballroom pushed open.
20:41A man in a charcoal suit walked in, flanked by two assistants.
20:46His eyes swept the room, locked onto me, and lit up.
20:49He came straight over.
20:50A gasp rippled through the crowd.
20:52Isn't that Ten Chen?
20:54He's a legend on the West Coast.
20:56What's he doing here?
20:57There's no way a man like that would show up to a wedding this size.
21:00Ken Chen reached me and offered his card, his voice warm and eager.
21:04Dr. Whitmore, we've backed three BCI startups in the last quarter, and every single one is stuck on the same
21:09algorithm.
21:11Name the time, we'll fly to Boston whenever it works for you.
21:14I took the card with a polite smile.
21:16Right behind him, a woman in a cream-colored suit hurried over from the head table.
21:22Dr. Whitmore, hello.
21:23Hello, I'm Diane Delgado, president of the ABCD Chamber of Commerce.
21:27May I connect with you on account number?
21:28One after another, they came.
21:30Executives and investors from across the East Coast.
21:33Each with a name recognizable enough to make the room hum.
21:36Their warmth was practically theatrical.
21:38Dr. Whitmore, I'm Michael Ellis, Kestra Pharma.
21:42Dr. Whitmore, Horizon Ventures would love to schedule a meeting.
21:45Business cards piled into my hands like falling snow.
21:48My mother was frozen in place.
21:50Her mouth opened.
21:51The wine glass in her hand tipped.
21:53Merlot bled across the white tablecloth.
21:56Serena stood on the stage, her fingers white-knuckled around the microphone.
22:00Elliot took half a step forward, as if to say something.
22:03Ethan's wine glass hung suspended in the air, his pupils blown wide with disbelief.
22:08How is this possible?
22:09Melanie forced a smile.
22:11Hazel, I had no idea.
22:12I'm so happy for you, really.
22:14I glanced at her.
22:16Melanie, your line would land better if your nails weren't drawing blood from your own palm.
22:20Her smile faltered.
22:21She looked away.
22:23My parents finally seemed to catch up.
22:25The fury on my mother's face had evaporated.
22:27In its place was something I'd never seen on her before.
22:30Something close to eager.
22:31She hurried over to Mr. Ashford, her face folding into layers of smiles.
22:36Mr. Ashford, please.
22:38Hazel is my own daughter.
22:39This partnership is a done deal.
22:41Let's finish the wedding first, and then we'll all sit down as family and work it out.
22:47Family.
22:48I repeated the word softly.
22:51Funny.
22:53Nobody said family a minute ago when you were pushing me out the door.
22:57The ballroom fell quiet again.
22:59Elliot's face cycled through several shades of red and white.
23:02Ethan had his head down.
23:04Grandfather.
23:04A young man's voice broke the silence.
23:06He wore a well-cut, deep-navy, three-piece suit.
23:10His features were similar to Julian's, but there was something steadier behind his eyes.
23:14Serena had posted photos of him on social hadware.
23:16Julian's cousin.
23:17Julian's biggest rival in the fight for succession at Ashford Industries.
23:21Sebastian moved to Mr. Ashford's side, his tone respectful.
23:27There's something you should know.
23:29A few minutes ago, in this room, the Whitmitters collectively tried to force Dr. Wetwood out.
23:35Julian.
23:37Julian joined them.
23:38He asked Dr. Witward to leave.
23:41Dr. Witward's work is critical to the future of Ashford Industries.
23:45Julian's behavior has damaged her personally, and it's damaged the Ashford family's relationship with her.
23:49Julian went white.
23:51He tried to open his mouth, but his words had been delivered in front of 30 tables of guests.
23:55There was nothing to walk back.
23:57Mr. Ashford was silent, but it was long enough for a thin sheen of sweat to form on Julian's forehead.
24:03The old man tapped his fingers softly against the tabletop.
24:07If this wedding doesn't welcome Dr. Witward, then the wedding precedes without me.
24:11Dr. Witward and I will be leaving now.
24:13He turned and gestured for me to go ahead of him.
24:16Julian's face strained further.
24:17He rushed forward, blocking Mr. Ashford's path.
24:20Grandfather, it's my wedding.
24:21You can't leave.
24:22Mr. Ashford looked at him.
24:23What was in his eyes was pure disappointment.
24:26Do you know how many favors I called in to get one meeting with Dr. Witward?
24:31And instead, you and your bride tried to throw her out the door.
24:37And you have the nerve to ask me to stay?
24:41He didn't look at Julian again.
24:42He turned to me with a small nod.
24:44Dr. Witward, shall we?
24:46I picked up my clutch, walked past the crowd, and headed for the door.
24:50Behind me, Serena finally cracked.
24:52A choked cry.
24:53Hazel!
24:54I didn't turn around.
24:55The private lounge at the Ashford Estate in Newport.
24:58Mr. Ashford poured me a glass of time-honored red wine.
25:01Dr. Witward, what happened today was unacceptable on the Ashford family's part.
25:06He set the bottle down.
25:08His voice was steady, sincere.
25:12I'm removing Julian from the BCI program.
25:14He won't be involved.
25:16A man who can't read a room isn't capable of leading Ashford Industries into what's next.
25:20And he isn't capable of managing a partnership with you.
25:23I'll build a separate team that reports directly to you.
25:26The terms are yours to name.
25:27I raised the glass and took a sip.
25:29Time-honored red wine.
25:30Beautiful wine.
25:31Mr. Ashford was a shrewd man.
25:33He had no shortage of grandsons.
25:35Julian was one of many.
25:37But the person capable of rescuing a half-billion-dollar program that had stalled for two years?
25:42There was exactly one.
25:44Globally.
25:45An hour later, we had a framework.
25:47I would take equity in the joint venture in exchange for the technology, 20% of the project company, plus
25:53a seven-figure licensing fee.
25:55The specifics would go to the lawyers, but the shape of the deal was locked.
25:58Mr. Ashford drove me to the hotel in his car and opened the door for me.
26:03Get some rest, Dr. Whitmore.
26:04My driver will pick you up in the morning.
26:06I'd like to show you how Newport has changed.
26:09Thank you, Mr. Ashford.
26:11I thanked him and walked into the lobby.
26:12The presidential suite was on the 42nd floor.
26:15Floor-to-ceiling windows overlooked the Narragansett Bay, coastline.
26:19I showered, wrapped myself in the hotel robe, and settled into the couch by the window with a glass of
26:24Sauvignon Blanc.
26:25My phone was buzzing non-stop.
26:27The family group chat had ballooned to over 200 messages.
26:30My mother had sent seven or eight one-minute voice memos in a row.
26:34Her tone was unrecognizable from the night before.
26:37Hazel, where are you?
26:40It's not safe for a young woman to be out this late alone.
26:43Come home.
26:45Mom already made up your room.
26:47Mom was in the wrong before.
26:50Mom said things she shouldn't have.
26:52Please don't take it to heart.
26:54What kind of mother doesn't love her own child?
26:56Do you remember when you had pneumonia at four years old?
27:00I stayed three days and three nights with you in the ER.
27:04You've always had a place in Mom's heart.
27:09Hazel, we're family.
27:11Blood is thicker than water.
27:13I didn't respond.
27:14My father.
27:16Hazel, Dad knows you've had it harder than the others.
27:19But Serena's grades were always exceptional.
27:21This family only had so much to invest.
27:23It made sense to focus on the one with the most potential.
27:25Now that you've made it, Dad is truly happy for you.
27:28Come home sometime.
27:29I'll make you your favorite mac and cheese.
27:30I scrolled past.
27:31Mac and cheese is Serena's favorite.
27:34Not mine.
27:35Elliot had sent a barrage of messages, unable to contain himself.
27:38Hazel, do you have any idea how many people called me after word got out?
27:41Is Dr. Hazel Whitwork really your sister?
27:43Everyone at my firm is reposting you.
27:45Do you know what that did for my reputation?
27:47What hotel are you at?
27:50I'll come pick you up tomorrow.
27:51Let me throw you a welcome dinner.
27:53That Michelin three star I mentioned?
27:55I'll book the best table in the house.
27:59Hazel, I know I've said things over the years.
28:03Don't take them personally.
28:04We're family.
28:05There's nothing we can't talk out.
28:07Ethan's messages were, for the first time in his life, careful.
28:10Hazel, I didn't know the full picture today.
28:12I spoke out of line.
28:13I hope you'll forgive me.
28:15Back in school, you were always sharper than the rest of us.
28:17I should have seen it earlier.
28:18He followed it with a thumbs up emoji.
28:20If you ever need anything, just reach out.
28:23Another message right after.
28:24Listen to me.
28:24It should be the other way around.
28:26I should be the one asking you for help.
28:27Are you free tomorrow?
28:28Let me buy you dinner.
28:30Consider it an apology.
28:31I actually laughed.
28:32In high school, trying to score points with Serena, he told me to my face.
28:36Hazel, you're honestly dense.
28:40How are you not even half as smart as Serena?
28:44Now he was telling me I'd always been sharper than the rest of them.
28:47That's how it works.
28:48The moment you have value, people rearrange their memories around you.
28:52You don't need to have said the right thing.
28:54You don't need to have done the right thing.
28:56Someone else will smooth it all over for you.
28:58Melanie's message was long.
29:00Hazel, I am so proud of you.
29:02I'm genuinely so happy for you.
29:03Now that you're this successful, do you think we're all just kind of pathetic in comparison?
29:08I'm just this basic nine-to-five girl.
29:11I'm not like you, with everyone hanging on my every word.
29:14I'm honestly jealous.
29:16Get some rest in Newport.
29:17Don't burn out.
29:18When are you back in New York?
29:19Let's grab dinner.
29:20I want to really catch up.
29:21I laughed under my breath, every line supposedly celebrating me, every line quietly measuring me.
29:27The truth was, our friendship hadn't started to rot with Serena's arrival.
29:31It had started earlier.
29:33Middle school, when I'd just transferred in and was ranked at the bottom of the class,
29:37that's when Melanie had been the sweetest to me.
29:39Then I started showing real ability in math and physics.
29:42Teachers began calling me out in class.
29:45Her congratulations always came with a hint of something bitter.
29:48You solved that AP Calcate again, bestie.
29:51I'm so proud of you.
29:53But ACTs are cumulacid, remember?
29:55Your English is such a mess.
29:57Who knows if you'll even get into college.
29:59Amazing.
30:00Oh, but this English lit question was so easy.
30:02How did you get it wrong?
30:04Small, quiet cuts.
30:06That was my adolescence.
30:07I was just young enough to still hold out unrealistic hope for family and friendship.
30:12And a social software notification lit up on my screen.
30:14I opened it.
30:15A new post from Serena.
30:16From an hour ago.
30:18The photo was a heavily edited shot from the reception.
30:20An ocean of white roses.
30:22Chandeliers full of light.
30:23Serena in profile.
30:25Standing dead center on the stage.
30:26Composed, filtered, warmly lit.
30:29The caption read.
30:31Thank you to everyone who came to witness the happiest day of my life.
30:34I closed the app.
30:36Connection request from Julian.
30:38His note.
30:39Dr. Whitmore, I owe you a sincere apology for today.
30:41I misjudged the situation completely and I said things I should not have said.
30:45I would be grateful for a chance to apologize in person.
30:48Sebastian had connected too.
30:49His note was one line.
30:51Dr. Whitmore, looking forward to working with you.
30:53Sebastian.
30:54I flipped my phone face down on the arm of the couch.
30:57Outside the window.
30:58The lights of the yachts on Narragansett Bay stretched across the water in a shimmering line.
31:02Ten years ago, my family was not poor.
31:05But my parents had a theory.
31:06Spoiling girls just teaches them to compete over things.
31:09If you raise them lean, they learn gratitude.
31:12So starting in middle school, the field trip fees, the prom dresses, the AP registration payments.
31:17The teachers had to email home again and again.
31:19I was young enough that shame kept me quiet, red-faced, unable to meet anyone's eyes.
31:24Meanwhile, Serena had private SAT tutors.
31:26And whatever she wanted delivered within days.
31:29I remember thinking, back then, that one day I'd come home successful.
31:33That I'd repay every dismissal, every cold shoulder.
31:36Doubled.
31:36Now that day was here.
31:38I was standing where hundreds of people looked up.
31:40I didn't need to count what was in my accounts.
31:42I was at the top of the tallest building in the city.
31:44The girl who woke up sweating on the living room couch at 18.
31:47The girl with blood dripping down her forehead.
31:48Kneeling to pick up a $50 bill for two weeks of groceries.
31:51The girl who cried into her pillow every time her family chose someone else.
31:55She felt very far away.
31:56The Hazel Whitmore.
31:57Of now didn't need anyone's apologies.
31:59She didn't need anyone's flattery.
32:01She was already standing high enough that the wounds that used to keep her awake at night
32:04looked, from this altitude, like a speck on the ground.
32:07I put down the glass, turned off the light, and went to bed.
32:10King-size mattress.
32:11I didn't dream.
32:13At eight the next morning, I dressed and crossed the hotel lobby.
32:16A black car was parked just past the revolving doors.
32:19Serena was standing beside it.
32:21She looked like she hadn't slept.
32:22When she saw me, she straightened her back.
32:25Hazel?
32:25Her voice was hoarse.
32:28I need to talk to you.
32:30Her fingertips were cold.
32:31About what?
32:32Hazel, can you-
32:33Her throat moved.
32:34Her voice caught.
32:36Can you just talk to me for a few minutes?
32:38I'd never seen Serena like this before.
32:40Okay.
32:41Ten minutes.
32:42We crossed the street and walked into the cafe.
32:47Post from last night, that was me, she said, worrying her lower lip.
32:51The truth is, the wedding fell apart.
32:53After Mr. Ashford left, not once, Julian's father called him back to the estate.
33:01Hazel, I don't know what to do.
33:06I tapped the table and looked at her.
33:09Say what you actually came to say.
33:10You have eight minutes.
33:11Her eyes filled again.
33:14Hazel, could you talk to Mr. Ashford?
33:16Julian is just scared his grandfather is going to hold this against him.
33:20That's why he hasn't come to me.
33:21It's not that he doesn't want to marry me.
33:24Please, just say something.
33:25Tell Mr. Ashford not to blame him.
33:28First, I said, cutting her off.
33:30I didn't ask Mr. Ashford to do anything to you or Julian.
33:32I haven't got the time or interest.
33:33Serena froze.
33:36Second, when things went sideways yesterday, Julian's choice was to leave you alone at your
33:41own wedding and walk out the door.
33:43Whether or not he has any spine is something you'll want to sit with.
33:46Her whole face locked in place.
33:48The soft shell she'd been holding together started to crack.
33:51And something sharper began to show through the seams.
33:54Hazel Whitmore.
33:55She said the whole name.
33:56You must be enjoying this.
33:58You were never as good as any of us.
34:00Not the grades.
34:01Not with mom and dad.
34:02In every family photo, you're pushed to the edge.
34:08And now you're standing over all of us, watching us crash and burn.
34:11You must be loving every second of it.
34:13She stared at me, her eyes bloodshot.
34:16I stood up.
34:16Serena, instead of guessing what I'm thinking, why don't you use the energy on figuring out
34:21how to save your marriage?
34:22Her pupils contracted.
34:24Making Julian want you back?
34:26Keeping the Mrs. Ashford title?
34:27That's what you should be worrying about.
34:29Anything you spend on me is wasted.
34:31I walked around her and out of the cafe.
34:33Behind me, I heard a raw, ragged shriek.
34:36Oh!
34:37Hazel!
34:38You've got a few patents, so what?
34:40Who do you think you are?
34:41You think you're something special?
34:43A few days later, someone knocked on the door of the presidential suite.
34:47I opened it.
34:48My parents stood there with gift bags in hand, their faces stretched into wide, ingratiating
34:54smile.
34:58Elliot pulled out his cell phone the moment he stepped in and started filming in social
35:02media.
35:04The presidential suite?
35:06What is this, a night?
35:08Hazel, you're really living, aren't you?
35:09Not like the rest of us grinding out our nine-to-fives.
35:11I'm honestly so jealous.
35:13I pulled my arm free.
35:16Why are you here?
35:17My mother nudged Serena forward.
35:19Serena stumbled a half-step ahead of the group.
35:21Hazel, about the cafe and about the wedding, I was wrong.
35:26I shouldn't have tried to set you up at my wedding and I shouldn't have said the things
35:28I said.
35:29I was upset.
35:30I lashed out.
35:31Please don't hold it against me.
35:35That's right.
35:35That's right.
35:37She knows she messed up.
35:38She's been crying at home, not eating, not sleeping.
35:42You two are sisters.
35:43Blood is thicker than water.
35:45Hazel, please.
35:46My father nodded from behind her.
35:48Yes, Hazel.
35:49If it makes you feel better, you can scold her a little.
35:51Really let her have it.
35:57For 28 years, every time Serena and I had a conflict, this had always been the line.
36:06You're the older one.
36:07Set an example for her.
36:08She's still young.
36:09Don't stoop to her level.
36:10I didn't do it.
36:11Serena did.
36:12Serena had never once been asked to apologize.
36:14Not asked to apologize.
36:16Not even asked to tone it down.
36:18And now they'd brought her over to apologize to me in person, which taught me something,
36:22I suppose.
36:23Favoritism can, in fact, be reversed.
36:26But because I no longer stood in the same place I used to.
36:29Apology received.
36:30You can leave now.
36:31I'm heading back to New York in a couple of days.
36:33I have things to handle.
36:35New York?
36:36Elliot's eyes lit up.
36:37He pocketed his phone.
36:39Hazel, we've never been to New York.
36:41We should come visit.
36:42Sure.
36:46You come.
36:47I'll take you out to dinner.
36:47I'll cover the hotel.
36:48My mother's smile flickered.
36:50Hotel?
36:51She frowned.
36:52You can't just put us up at your place.
36:54A single licensing deal netted you 10 million.
36:57You must have some huge place in New York.
36:58What kind of family stays in a hotel when you have a home right there?
37:01That's cold.
37:02Right.
37:03Your place has to be huge.
37:04Why waste it standing empty when family's in town?
37:06I looked at them, and I smiled.
37:08I do have a home.
37:10But it's my home.
37:11It has nothing to do with any of you.
37:14The temperature in the room dropped.
37:15My mother's smile froze on her face.
37:22When I came back to Newport, didn't I stay at a hotel?
37:24Nobody had a response for that.
37:26My mother's face went through several colors, but nothing came out of her mouth.
37:29Elliot pretended to be very interested in the hotel welcome packet.
37:32My father cleared his throat.
37:33If there's nothing else, please, I'm busy.
37:39Before she left, my mother paused.
37:41Her voice was low.
37:41Hazel, you're not going to forgive me, are you?
37:44I said, no.
37:45And I closed the door.
37:46Back in New York, fragments of news would occasionally drift my way.
37:50Ethan had co-signed a six-figure loan for a friend.
37:53The friend defaulted and disappeared.
37:56The bank came after him.
37:58His wife took the two kids back to her mother's and retained a divorce lawyer.
38:01Melanie met a man and had a marriage license in six weeks.
38:07Less than a month in, she found out he was carrying $150,000 in credit card debt and student loans.
38:14They spend most nights now breaking dishes at each other.
38:18Adulthood is a scam.
38:19My mother was admitted to the hospital.
38:21Nothing serious.
38:22The doctors just wanted her overnight for observation.
38:26Elliot said he was too busy with work to take off.
38:29Serena had her own problems.
38:30The Ashfords had already introduced Julian to someone else.
38:33A Newport girl.
38:35Comparable pedigree to Serena.
38:37Her one advantage was being younger.
38:42Serena spent most of her days watching Julian's find my cell phone location.
38:46Trying to piece together where he actually was.
38:48She didn't have time to sit at a hospital bedside, which left my mother.
38:52She was telling anyone who'd listen.
38:54My daughter Hazel?
38:56Ph.D. from M.I.T.
38:58She was always the sweetest one.
38:59When I was sick, she was the one bringing me my medicine.
39:02Not scared of catching a thing.
39:04That girl loves her mother.
39:07She'd tear up in the middle of saying it.
39:09Her sweetest daughter, of course, was the one who no longer had anything to say to her.
39:13The fragments reach me sometimes.
39:15From partners in passing.
39:17From chat software feeds.
39:19From old classmates in a group text.
39:21I hear them.
39:22I don't feel much.
39:23Not because I've gone numb.
39:30Because my life is full.
39:31Data.
39:32Conferences.
39:34Transatlantic collaborations.
39:35There isn't a single keynote slide's worth of space left over for old grievances.
39:40There are harder problems to solve.
39:42There is so much still to find out.