00:00I actually got a boob job and my mom joked when I got it done.
00:03She was like, who are you?
00:04Like, I don't even wear bras.
00:06Hi guys, my name is Nikki Philippi.
00:08I have always been into, like, just hair and makeup and fashion.
00:12I loved magazines.
00:14I would buy piles of them and just keep them for long periods of time.
00:17I did not feel like the girls in the magazines.
00:21I had, like, really clear skin in high school.
00:23I would get stopped, like, on the street, at the store, at restaurants.
00:27I mean, literally very regularly.
00:29And people would come over and be like, oh my gosh, you have the most beautiful skin.
00:34Then I got my period when I was 18 and I got severe acne.
00:38Like, bad acne that you would see, like, on the wall of a doctor's office.
00:43And it made me not want to go out of my house for a long time.
00:46And not even just from like, ew, I look gross.
00:49It was like, I didn't want to talk to people because it hurt to talk to people.
00:54And that's weird to be, like, such a smiley person who all of a sudden you're like,
00:58I can't smile because it hurts.
01:00That's why the scars still, like, affect me.
01:04Scarring just brings me back to how painful it all really was.
01:10I feel beautiful on some days.
01:13And then other days, I don't feel beautiful.
01:16It comes and it goes.
01:16That's the thing.
01:17I feel like you want to think you've, like, mastered things.
01:20But I haven't.
01:22And I think just looking back, I would tell myself, like, relax.
01:25Just enjoy life.
01:27Enjoy yourself.
01:28And really, most importantly, like, it's okay.
01:31Like, you've got to be okay.
01:32Especially as routine on A Radio.
01:32You can play exactly how difficult you really took to step back from when you took it out.
01:32It looks like, you know, you know, it's like enjoying your content for most people.
01:33Like, more, like, one time.
01:33And to talk about how much fun film you took to take out, you know what and the terrible job
01:33of jococcott,
01:33And then people walked into the $45240.
01:34Ah, res fifty percent Pepper.
