00:00I grew up playing football like I was such a tomboy and that's what everyone
00:04called me. Like if you grew up in the South there's like an age but that's
00:07acceptable. You're wearing skirts, you're going to look pretty, you're going to be
00:12the most assimilated child in the United States of America. But that didn't work
00:16for me.
00:34I sort of always wanted to like be a greaser in drag. That to me was always hot as fuck.
00:40That's sort of my everyday style. I look like I could kill a man with my thumb but
00:44also like could like you know perform show tunes at the drop of a hat. It's a
00:49little bit exciting but then also a little bit dangerous. I let people in who
00:55want to come in and then the people want to try me while they get the greaser. So it
00:59works out. My eyebrows were inspired by Charlie Chaplin. I saw him doing makeup
01:03and he drew his eyebrows really big and I thought that was so cool and I liked how
01:07his eyebrows looked because they sort of had this extra expression. I feel like I'm
01:13always surprised. Like I never know what's gonna happen. Every day is new so
01:17might as well look like I'm shocked.
01:27My identity has everything to do with my clothing because it's how I present
01:31myself to the world. It's your initial reaction. It's how you meet me before you
01:36meet me. I kind of always wanted for my clothes to say what I didn't feel like
01:41saying which is me not always explaining my gender or my sexuality. It was always
01:47very protective. It sort of protected me from people who had things to say that
01:51were negative or people who just didn't understand. It repels the people are
01:55supposed to repel and accepts the people are supposed to accept. Growing up I
01:58think that I spent a lot of time sort of trying to embrace my masculinity more than
02:04subdue it. So I literally thought for a whole year that I could turn myself into a
02:09boy. I thought this was a thing I could do and then I realized when I turned 19 I
02:14was like damn this is my last teenage year. I really don't want to waste it
02:18being someone I'm not and so then I came out and everyone just sort of had to
02:23accept it. Not that they didn't know already. I mean I was I was about as butch as it
02:28gets so they sort of just had to deal with it. I definitely feel like sometimes my
02:34clothing makes me a target in a lot of spaces. Mostly spaces like you know like the
02:39grocery store or the subway. I guess you sort of just get used to it. Not that
02:43that happens all the time because it doesn't happen all the time luckily
02:46enough because I do think that my appearance is and even my demeanor shuts
02:50down a lot of homophobia, transphobia. It all sort of stops right before they
02:55even like start but I am always very prepared for that because I do realize
02:59that the world is not as beautiful as I think it is and not as beautiful as I'd
03:04like it to be and maybe that's why all the queer people are here I think that
03:21creating your identity is important because if you don't create it then
03:25someone's going to give you one or create one for you which is sadly the
03:29case with anyone growing up period. You're going to be labeled as this or
03:34that. Kids at school are going to label you something. Your parents are going to
03:37label you something and unless you choose to figure out who you are or what you
03:41connect with you'll sort of be stuck with it and miserable your whole entire
03:46life and turn into someone you never ever wanted to be.
