00:00But...
00:02Huh? What do you mean, but?
00:04Because after a month, he broke up with me.
00:08Why?
00:11Why?
00:14Because during that one whole month,
00:17maybe not whole, but sorry,
00:21we had a lot of fights,
00:23small fights.
00:25In one month, you had a lot of fights?
00:27Yes, a lot.
00:28Because our insecurities faded away.
00:31So, we had a lot of fights.
00:33Like what?
00:35For example,
00:37I don't want to feel like I have no worth,
00:39or that I have no story.
00:42So, when there are incidents in our organization,
00:47I want to be included, or everybody.
00:50Say for example,
00:52we were drafting the organization's bylaws
00:56because we were rebuilding.
00:58And then,
01:00he was already doing it,
01:02he was already creating the draft.
01:05Meanwhile,
01:07for me, those things should be discussed
01:10by everyone involved in the organization,
01:12not just one person.
01:13So,
01:17then he complained that
01:19he was holding onto a lot of different orgs.
01:22Then,
01:23we were like,
01:24let's just include us,
01:26let's discuss all of that.
01:29Because you accepted him as a whole.
01:32Did you fall in love with him back then?
01:37Why aren't you answering?
01:39Because,
01:40if I don't answer right away,
01:42because my idea of love has changed
01:46compared to before.
01:48At that time,
01:49at that point,
01:50it's not the love that you share with other people.
01:54For example,
01:55I love Joe,
01:56I love Vong,
01:57I have the same love for them.
02:00I love Ayun,
02:01but my love for her is not the same as my love for Vong and Joe.
02:06Do you have the same love for her?
02:10It's not that deep,
02:12my love for her.
02:15So, I can say I love you,
02:16but
02:18it's not 100%.
02:19It's not that deep to say I love you to her.
02:22I love you,
02:23but I can say I love you to other people.
02:26You loved her,
02:27but you were not in love with her.
02:30Yes.
02:31How about you?
02:32Did you feel that you were in love with her?
02:34Or,
02:35it's like,
02:36I just believed it,
02:37but it's not like that.
02:38I want to believe that he loves me,
02:40but there's always
02:42at the back of my mind,
02:45He's telling you otherwise.
02:47Yes.
02:48Do you feel like he's just teasing you?
02:49Yes.
02:50Because,
02:51it came from my feeling that it's not possible for us to be together,
02:55and we became together.
02:56So, there's always the thought that,
02:58ah, anytime,
02:59this will disappear.
03:00This will also disappear.
03:01Oh.
03:02It must have been sad.
03:04That's sad, right?
03:05Yes,
03:06because it's like,
03:09I'm living on the breadcrumbs of attention that he's giving me.
03:13Momo breadcrumbs?
03:15Yes.
03:16Breadcrumbs.
03:17The breadcrumbs are amazing.
03:19What kind of bread are you talking about?
03:22Oh, breadcrumbs.
03:23The,
03:24the,
03:25Momo.
03:26The leftover.
03:27Yes.
03:28And it's like,
03:29you're afraid of making mistakes.
03:31Right?
03:32Whatever you do,
03:33you should really think that it won't disappear suddenly.
03:36Yes, because she really likes Guy.
03:38Yes.
03:39And she feels that,
03:40she's not, right?
03:41Yes.
03:42She wants,
03:43she'll do anything to please Ivan.
03:45And when you broke up,
03:46that's it?
03:47You broke up forever?
03:48Yes.
03:49When we broke up,
03:50I didn't win him back,
03:52because,
03:53or,
03:54I didn't beg him,
03:55because,
03:56it's like,
03:57I was forced to do that.
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