00:00Do you have any episodes in your life?
00:01Do you think you're going to be going to be going to be going to be going to be going?
00:04I broke my trust back then.
00:07I messed up also.
00:08I got hurt.
00:10But I've hurt people also.
00:12I'm really mad.
00:14I'm really mad.
00:15I'm really mad.
00:16I'm really mad.
00:18You're a third party?
00:19I'm not really mad.
00:26What's your feeling?
00:27What did you say?
00:29From my broken marriage,
00:33from my feeling,
00:35even from it goes way back from my childhood,
00:40I feel that I have a lot of unprocessed things
00:45that I haven't ever done with myself.
00:51And I learned that running away isn't the same as moving forward.
00:56And, yun po.
01:00So, nailabas mo na siya?
01:02Opo.
01:03Nakakagaan ang feeling yun?
01:05Opo.
01:05May mga episodes ka sa buhay na baliw-baliwan ka?
01:09Hindi naman po baliw-baliwan.
01:10Opo.
01:11Paano pa?
01:12Paano ito?
01:13Yung, ano ba?
01:14Gusto mo bang pagsulo ka lagi?
01:16O ano bang?
01:16Paano ba ikaw?
01:18Hindi naman po baliw-baliwan.
01:21Pero...
01:22Krung-krung ba?
01:24Dasang darabang.
01:25Krung-krung.
01:27Hindi po.
01:27Ang feeling ko pag-therapy po kasi may noson talaga na krung-krung or baliw-baliwan.
01:33Ato yung bago eh?
01:34Oo.
01:34Ikaw nga.
01:35Sinabi mo nga eh.
01:36Ikaw nga.
01:37Sumalik sa akin.
01:38Ika kasabi mo nga lang.
01:40Pero parang pattern po ba?
01:42Kaya it's something that keeps happening.
01:46But if you want something different for your life, then you just change it.
01:51Do something differently.
01:53Let's say for example, you keep making the wrong turn and you wonder why.
01:57It's because hindi ka nagbukas ng ways.
02:01So therapy is just like opening ways.
02:06Doon sa therapy sessions mo, anong mga na-realize mo sa sarili mo?
02:11Anong mga nasututunan mo doon?
02:12Na valid naman po na na-break yung trust ko dati.
02:17Na natakot ako magtiwala.
02:20Na nasanay ako mag-isa.
02:22Pero hindi ko na kailangan matakot ngayon.
02:25So bumalik na yung ano mo sa'yo?
02:26Sa sarili mo yung tiwala sa sarili mo ngayon?
02:28Opo.
02:29Nawala talaga?
02:30Nawalan po ako ng lakas ng loob eh.
02:33Bata pa lang ako.
02:34Imbes na matuto ako mag-enjoy nung bata ako,
02:38natuto ako maging matatag.
02:41So madaming mga ganon.
02:44And then ngayon pa lang po ako natututong mag-enjoy.
02:48Ngayon pa lang po ako natututong maging malakas ang loob.
02:54At na-miss mo yun. Nagita mo yung mga fans mo.
02:56Yung mga press kanina ng mga fans na rin.
02:59Press pa lang eh.
03:00Press pa lang yan.
03:01Paano pa ako nasa concert ka na.
03:03Looking forward sa concert.
03:05Opo.
03:05At naasahan mo.
03:06Kasi two years sir, diba?
03:08Two years kang wala.
03:10Saan nagtago?
03:11Hindi ko nga po alam bakit ganon eh.
03:14Pero minsan din po, parang feeling ko,
03:17isa pa sa mga natutunan ko,
03:18So madalas mas malakas yung takot.
03:21Oo, tama.
03:23And madalas yun yung lumalabas kapag nagsasalita tayo.
03:27And therapy helps you realign.
03:31And then you get into rooms like this
03:34and makikita mo ay marami pa palang mamal sa'yo.
03:38So naano ka kanina?
03:40Na uplift yung emotion mo.
03:42So may, ah, naka-forgive ka na?
03:45Opo.
03:46Sa mga, hindi man kakaila yung mga,
03:50may mga friends na sinabing,
03:52parang in-unfollow ka sa Instagram
03:55or mga hindi na tayo friends.
03:58Parang ganon.
03:59Ano, paano natin sabi niya
04:00na patawad mo na sila along the way?
04:04Opo, pero,
04:06feeling ko sa sarili ko po,
04:09mas madali po sakin magpatawad.
04:12Ang pinaka,
04:14siguro isa po sa pinaka-importanting natutunan ko
04:18in my life in the last few years
04:20is yung humingi ng tawad.
04:22I think that's something that a lot of us
04:26have a hard time learning.
04:29And if there's something that I don't take lightly,
04:32it's knowing that I messed up also.
04:36I got hurt, but I've hurt people also.
04:40And that's something that I'm never gonna deny.
04:44I've hurt people I love.
04:46And I love them all dearly.
04:47And I've forgiven them.
04:50But,
04:51I also want the chance to ask for forgiveness.
04:55And I...
04:55Yeah.
04:57Parang,
04:57parang ganda ng pasok ng September to October mo
05:01kasi mag-concert ka.
05:02Tapos ngayon,
05:03September,
05:04bukas ka na sa lahat ng pusong kumain.
05:07Parang,
05:07hindi ka na nagsikreto.
05:09Kasi dati,
05:09hindi ka namin malapitan eh.
05:12Hindi ka na makakausap eh.
05:14Shuttered ka?
05:17Eh,
05:18kasi,
05:19sugatan pa eh.
05:21Hindi po talaga ako,
05:22ano eh.
05:24Ayoko po talaga,
05:25hindi ako,
05:26hindi po ako,
05:27hindi po talaga ako peke eh.
05:29Parang...
05:30Ah,
05:30sinabi mo nga kanina.
05:31Madaldal po talaga ako.
05:33Totoo po talaga ang balita.
05:37Di ba masaya din?
05:39Kasi magpa-interview ka din.
05:41Kaya nga po,
05:41iniiwasan ko kayo.
05:43Madaldal ko.
05:48Kanina,
05:49nangyak-nyak ka na sa mga,
05:51parang,
05:52mga relasyong na,
05:53naputol.
05:55Anong...
05:55Protective din po kasi talaga ako sa mga taong mahal ko.
05:59And,
06:00hindi ko po talaga alam kung,
06:02paano ako,
06:04magsasalita.
06:05Kasi,
06:05hindi ko alam.
06:07Marami din po akong tanong eh.
06:09Na hindi ko pa matanong dami.
06:39Yan yung mga ganon po.
06:42Parang,
06:43hindi ko po alam kung...
06:45Turo close kayo,
06:46ba't dinamay ka?
06:47Hindi ko rin po alam.
06:50Hindi ko rin po alam.
06:51Hindi ko rin po alam.
07:05At,
07:07wala rin pong third party sa kanilang dalawa,
07:10at hindi rin po ako ang third party sa kanilang dalawa.
07:13Ikaw na lumayo.
07:14Opo.
07:15Kasi,
07:15nagpa-interview po siya eh.
07:18Hindi na kami friends.
07:21Nasaktan na gulat dyan ha?
07:22Opo.
07:22Nasaktan po ako.
07:24Opo.
07:25Pero hindi po akong...
07:26I'm sure iniyakan mo yun.
07:28Opo.
07:30Pero panatawid na siya.
07:33Opo.
07:36So, nag-seek ka ng professional help?
07:39Yes.
07:40Buti na isip mo.
07:41I was the problem already.
07:43I knew that.
07:44Buti also knew that...
07:47there was a pattern.
