00:00I came from a conservative family and very conservative neighborhood, so it was
00:05never a thing because I never had boyfriends in high school. So I was kind of
00:08like awkward and wore crazy clothes. So that wasn't really a thing for me until
00:14I went to college and I went to college in New York City and all of a sudden
00:17everybody was good-looking and boys were interested in me and I started going on
00:22dates and eventually met somebody. I was a little bit shy but my best friend at
00:29the time, Dan, we met at Jewish summer camp. He and I came out at basically the
00:34same time and he was a bit more pioneering as far as finding us partners and then
00:41it went from there. I originally met him in Austin, Texas during South by Southwest.
00:46He was in a band so I just thought he was like God's gifter. He had long blonde hair,
00:50worked at a food co-op and I was an art student so of course I was totally
00:55fawning over him. Turns out he lived in Brooklyn so we continued dating back in
00:59New York and I was like all right I need to lose my virginity to him just to get
01:03it out of the way just to like get over that hump, no pun intended. The goal was
01:08to have sex so we, Dan took his sister's room and I remember even at the time
01:14thinking that I kind of just needed to get the first time out of the way so I
01:18could then keep doing it with many many people. I was very excited because we had
01:23been on a few dates in New York already and I was like all right this is the night
01:26I'm gonna I'm gonna get fucked tonight. He knew I was a virgin, he didn't believe me
01:30and I remember like I didn't know what I was doing and it was kind of like dark
01:34and he acts so bad he accidentally put it in the wrong hole briefly and it hurt so
01:41bad and I was like get the fuck off and I was like ow ow ow and we didn't have
01:47sex a
01:48third time that night. I thought I had to poop the entire time which ended up being
01:52really problematic because Tommy would start to fuck me and then I would go I have to
01:55poop, I have to poop, I have to poop, you have to stop, I have to poop and he was
01:57like you don't have to poop. I was like no I really have to poop but I never pooped
02:00and he was trying to explain to me that I wasn't used to having things other than
02:04poop inside of my ass and I had to learn how to differentiate between the two
02:08sensations but at the time I was not able to differentiate and I was thoroughly
02:14convinced that I was going to shit on his sister's sheets but I really saw him as
02:19the jumping-off point and from then on I just wanted to basically fuck as many
02:25people as possible.
