00:00 I'm the school teacher with Tourette's and OCD.
00:02 I've had parents assume that I'm swearing at their kids,
00:06 but that's just a lazy stereotype.
00:08 I do suppress my tics around pretty much every adult.
00:13 It is exhausting.
00:15 It feels like I'm going to explode.
00:19 My two kids respond to my tics differently.
00:24 When they got worse, it was definitely an adjustment.
00:27 She sometimes slaps herself if I'm talking,
00:30 and she whistles.
00:31 I get a little annoyed, but I try my best to ignore it.
00:36 My name is Colleen Montes, and I'm a teacher in Austin, Texas.
00:44 Can you work with him, and I will work with him?
00:47 Sure.
00:47 I teach at an elementary school.
00:49 I teach special education, and the students
00:53 are typically high-functioning, but they
00:55 have very severe behaviors.
00:58 When I first went into teaching, I did not have severe tics yet.
01:04 I'm going to give you seven blocks,
01:06 because that's what you have.
01:08 But you need to see if you have enough blocks, OK?
01:10 Or if you have to regroup.
01:11 The level of stress that I was under during COVID
01:15 and it being my first year teaching set my tics off.
01:19 And at that point, that's where my Tourette's really kicked in.
01:23 Six, seven.
01:24 Six.
01:25 [WHISTLE]
01:25 [APPLAUSE]
01:26 I obviously went to a doctor to see what was going on,
01:31 and then they diagnosed me a year later with Tourette's
01:34 syndrome.
01:34 I do get frustrated with my tics when I'm teaching,
01:41 when it's a student who picks up behaviors.
01:45 For example, I hit the desk, and then
01:48 the student with the repeating behaviors also hit the desk,
01:52 and I have to explain, no, you don't
01:54 do that, that's just my involuntary movements.
01:58 Eight.
01:58 [INAUDIBLE]
02:02 You have nine.
02:02 Eight.
02:03 Yes, good.
02:04 It is exhausting to suppress my tics.
02:09 It feels like I'm going to explode.
02:11 They're not painful when I suppress them,
02:13 they're exhausting, but when they come out,
02:15 they are usually painful.
02:17 Some parents, when I first told them that I had Tourette's,
02:20 their initial question was, do you cuss?
02:23 And I just let them know that I do not
02:26 have what is called coprolalia.
02:29 It's actually very rare in people with Tourette's,
02:32 but also if I did have it, we would have to deal with it.
02:36 I definitely think all of the students who are aware
02:40 that I'm neurodivergent, it really
02:42 helps them relate to me, because they struggle to cope in life.
02:49 And seeing that I also struggle, that I'm also
02:52 able to be successful, that helps them to be like,
02:55 oh, OK, I can do this too.
02:58 Hello.
03:01 My husband and I have been married for four years,
03:06 but we've been together for seven years.
03:09 You want me to get the pan?
03:11 Yeah, please.
03:13 Getting the fruits.
03:16 When we first started dating, I let
03:17 him know that I have these habits that I thought they were.
03:22 But a few years later, they got really bad,
03:25 and we just had to navigate that together.
03:30 There's just instances where she'll hit herself,
03:34 or she had one where she would dig her elbow into her leg.
03:37 So in those situations, it was tough to watch,
03:39 because I knew it was painful.
03:41 He's very supportive of me.
03:43 I need more.
03:45 Can you hand me a knife, please?
03:47 My OCD affects my Tourette's in a way
03:50 that I can't tick just one time.
03:54 I have to do it until it feels just right,
03:56 and usually that's four times.
04:00 If it's a painful tick, can't hit myself one time,
04:02 I got to do it four times.
04:04 And that is pretty much every tick
04:07 that I have all day, every day.
04:09 Can I cut one?
04:13 Cut one?
04:14 Sure, be careful, though.
04:16 My two kids respond to my ticks differently.
04:20 My older one, Gavin, he grew up without me having ticks.
04:25 So when they got worse, it was definitely
04:28 an adjustment for him.
04:30 Gavin, it used to be like he constantly
04:33 would ask me to stop making noises,
04:36 but now he's more accepting.
04:37 Where are all these other potions?
04:41 Look, I have a robot.
04:44 My younger child, Gracie, she has grown up
04:47 with me having ticks, so she doesn't even understand
04:51 that I do things differently.
04:53 Hmm?
04:54 Hmm.
04:55 Gavin, do you think your mom is different
04:57 from your friends' moms?
04:59 Um, yeah, because she has ticks.
05:05 She sometimes slaps herself with whistles.
05:08 I feel like that hopefully it doesn't hurt
05:12 when she slaps herself.
05:13 And sometimes I get a little annoyed,
05:16 like if I'm talking and she whistles,
05:19 I get a little annoyed.
05:20 But I try my best to ignore it.
05:24 I definitely worry that people are going to think
05:28 that I'm not a good mom because I have Tourette's.
05:33 What do you hope to teach your kids
05:35 about being different from others?
05:38 That it's OK to be different.
05:40 And they are different.
05:42 We're all neurodivergent.
05:44 They both have ADHD, so they know that they are different
05:48 and their brains work differently, and that's OK.
05:50 [MUSIC PLAYING]
05:52 [LAUGHS]
05:54 We're going to make Gracie's lunch today.
05:58 No.
05:59 I post Tourette's and OCD awareness on my TikTok.
06:04 So I can't move my neck today.
06:07 I can't release my tics the way I need to
06:11 because of the excruciating pain in my neck
06:14 from ticking in the first place.
06:17 I definitely got negative comments that just said I was
06:21 faking or I just wanted attention.
06:26 And it really got to me at first.
06:28 And I did post proof of my diagnosis.
06:32 Like, I'm not faking.
06:33 Look.
06:36 Now everyone is pretty nice and supportive.
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06:43 OK.
06:44 Sit down.
06:45 [LAUGHTER]
06:48 I think he has to pee.
06:51 The thing that I'm most proud of in my life
06:54 is probably the way that I'm raising my kids
06:57 to be super knowledgeable and inclusive of everyone
07:01 who is different.
07:03 Sorry, that was not too good.
07:05 And also, I get to teach that to my students as well.
07:10 I'm extremely proud of her.
07:12 It takes a lot to come out of your shell.
07:14 So for her to go on TikTok and share her story
07:17 and what she has to deal with every day, I think,
07:20 is huge for her.
07:21 It's OK to be different.
07:23 It's OK to be neurodivergent.
07:25 It doesn't make us any less.
07:28 To a young person with Tourette's or OCD,
07:31 I would say there's also ways to cope.
07:35 You'll be OK.
07:36 I'm OK.
07:37 You'll be OK.
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