00:02I have decided to keep a journal
00:03To set down all my thoughts
00:05And the simple events of my day
00:07I will keep this diary for one year
00:09And at the end of that time
00:10It will be destroyed
00:17I encouraged my son to enlist
00:19It was a family tradition
00:21Six months later he was dead in Iraq
00:24I was lost
00:24My son said the reading of the Lord
00:26Praise be God
00:32So how are you?
00:33Oh I'm fine
00:34No really
00:35It's been a while since we've talked
00:36Even a pastor needs a pastor
00:38Did you see the doctor?
00:40You need someone to take care of you
00:42I want you to be happy
00:43I know that nothing can change
00:45And I know there is no hope
00:49Reverend Toler?
00:50Yes ma'am
00:51You must come over
00:52You must come over now
00:59Explosive
01:00She was becoming someone I didn't know
01:01Opportunistic diseases
01:03Anarchy
01:03Martial law
01:04You will live to see this
01:05But you had no idea
01:06That he was thinking of
01:07No
01:07I'm so frightened
01:12These kids they want certainty
01:14You know
01:14Don't think
01:15Follow
01:16They fall prey to extremism
01:18It's a world without hope
01:19No
01:20I have not lost my faith
01:24You think that what we did together was a sin?
01:27I've seen enough real sin to know the difference
01:29You didn't tell a police ring
01:31Take a look at your own life before you criticize others
01:34These are frightening times
01:36We have to be patient
01:37Well somebody has to do something
01:55My hands shake as I write these lines
01:57Can God forgive us for what we've done to this world?
02:08Who can know the mind of God?
02:09Who can know the mind of God?
