00:12Going bathing suit shopping is like kind of a mild disaster, constantly.
00:17Why is there nothing that fits me?
00:20Why is the lighting in here so bad?
00:23Oh my god, I have cellulite.
00:25I mean, I know I have cellulite, but like I'm really good at forgetting that I have
00:29cellulite.
00:30My internal monologue when I'm trying on bathing suits is unfortunately pretty negative.
00:35Ah, damn it.
00:37And like pulling and like trying to get something and then like realizing, oh, it's too small.
00:42And like I look stupid and my stomach's big and fat.
00:45And then you're just tired and then you leave with nothing and then you just feel like you
00:48wasted your life.
00:51It's like, I guess I'm going to the beach someday.
00:53That's what I was preparing for.
00:55That was supposed to be fun.
00:56And then this made me want to vomit.
01:01When I hear the phrase beach body, I mean, I don't think of me.
01:06Tall, probably like tan, no body fat, like, you know what I mean?
01:11Like everything's like sucked and perfect.
01:15Some days you wake up and you're like, oh my God, I am banging.
01:19Like, thank God.
01:20And then some days you wake up and you're like, well, turns out I'm a monster piece of garbage.
01:25And I didn't realize that.
01:28It can be definitely a way for me to torture myself.
01:32You learn from a young age that weight matters, dude.
01:36Wow.
01:37It looks like you have no chest.
01:40All of these images and ideas that you have about what other women look like, supposedly.
01:46You will never be what you want to be.
01:49Sorry.
01:51I'm going to get emotional because my mom is so great.
01:55She would talk to me about how she felt when she was younger.
01:58If I had a daughter, I would just want to make sure that she felt confident in herself and
02:04not apologize and feel great about who she is and not think that being a woman or being
02:11a girl is somehow less than.
02:13Don't be afraid to desexualize yourself if that's how you feel.
02:22I think what we could do to make women have a better body image is stop telling women that
02:29their worth is how they look.
02:31Representing the fact that there are so many types of women.
02:36That's why plus size bloggers and us girls, we've got to be out here like, girl, love your
02:39body.
02:41I like my skin color.
02:45I love my hips.
02:46I am an embodiment of Kate Bosworth.
02:51I don't know if I necessarily have a beach body, but I'm going to be on that beach.
02:56Yeah.
02:57Oh, that's like a nice little apple pie right there.
03:01But also wear sunscreen because I mean, beach is very dangerous.
