00:00Thank you Courtney for that introduction. Thank you Variety. Thank you U.S. Bank.
00:08Us Bank. Am I right? Thank you to all the other amazing women for being so inspiring.
00:19I'm going to be real. I don't have an inspirational speech. I don't have it in me today. I'm so
00:23sorry.
00:24I just I really don't. I heard they wanted to give me this award and I was like why I
00:29haven't
00:29done shit this year and my publicist just emailed me back a bunch of things that I've done this year
00:36and was like this just go and I was really honored that she took the time to write it out
00:42and I was
00:42like oh maybe I do deserve this okay I'm gonna go but then I was like fuck I gotta write
00:50a speech
00:50in three to four minutes that's so long so then I just kind of forgot about it because I was
00:56working
00:57and then I got distracted because the deadline was approaching and the industry just keeps
01:04eating itself we've talked about it tonight and then this country has just been countrying
01:10and I mean that very pejoratively and then I think about El Nino and LAI and how that's
01:18gonna fuck us all up and then I thought this is all men's fault like it's rich white men to
01:34be
01:34specific for this moment and I hate that I'm not passing the Bechdel test but it is hard to feel
01:41like a powerful woman when men keep fucking everything up
01:48so that's where I'm at just like mentally and that's why I wrote a speech that sounds like this
01:54but it is very hard to feel inspired when you feel helpless and useless um but whenever I feel like
02:04this well actually luckily I'm a writer and so I'm very used to being to having those feelings of
02:11feeling helpless and useless I'm a professional procrastinator and whenever I feel like this I
02:16start trying to figure out the easiest things I can do to feel like I did something I am the
02:23person who
02:24makes a to-do list and writes make a to-do list on it and checks it off so I
02:29could feel like I did
02:30something so I try to focus not necessarily on the biggest things but just something the the things
02:38I know I can do and so I can decide who I'm around for the most part I who I
02:45work with who I champion
02:47who I invest in whose stories I help to who I platform who I respond to I can use the
02:56power I do
02:56have to pour into my little community to make sure whatever success I'm lucky enough to have doesn't
03:02stop with me and even when I'm tired pissed off or deeply uninspired by what's happening around me
03:09I can honestly say that nothing can stop me from trying to figure out where I can be useful
03:17because as discouraged as I may get I'm never going to stop trying
03:22and thank you thank you for applauding my effort and you know maybe that's all any of us can do
03:31is just figure out where we have some power a little power and use it the fuck for good please
03:39so that's what I'm going to do I hope you guys do too and I hope this is three minutes
03:44thank you guys
03:49thank you for the encouragement thank you variety thank you you guys appreciate y'all
