00:00I am bisexual, I'm married to a woman, but I had this older boyfriend as well.
00:05I was obsessed with him, and I was so young, and I really wanted him to keep liking me,
00:10and so I was like, I guess I should have sex with him.
00:13We humped in his closet, his mom was at work.
00:19We were talking, the music was on, and you know, I just started, you know, my harmonies
00:24started raging, and you know, of course his hormones were raging and everything, and then
00:28everything just led to another.
00:30He used like Vaseline lotion, and I think he was high on LSD, in fact I know he was.
00:37It was terrible, it was painful.
00:39My best friend to this day, she says that I called her and said it felt like the devil
00:45was tap dancing on my crotch.
00:48I remember it being a little on the painful side because he was really well endowed, and
00:54I was a little young thing.
00:55We had sex, and then he stopped talking to me after that.
01:00I felt, I was objectified.
01:02I think that's also why I chose to be with a woman, partly, because I was just like, I
01:08feel more comfortable around women, and I feel more connected to them spiritually.
01:13I thought like, we were gonna be at his own house, and you know, we'd come home from this
01:19nice day, and then we'd get a little freaky, and you know, we'd just be all sexified up.
01:25But this happened like, I was cut in class, and we were hanging out, and then it sort of
01:31happened.
01:32So, I wasn't ready for that basically.
01:33I was like 14, and I just wasn't, it shouldn't have happened.
01:39I would consider like, my wife and having sex with her, like my losing my virginity.
01:46I wouldn't have waited until I knew what it meant to me.
01:50I just wish I would have waited for someone that's special.
01:53Like, I never see this guy, I never talked to him, the last time I saw him was in Walmart,
01:57like.
