00:00When you're feeling around for a place to pull your hair out, certain places stick out more.
00:05The place that makes you feel something is the place that you pull from.
00:12I didn't realize it was a disorder until I googled pull out my hair.
00:17People don't realize it's a disorder. They think it's a yucky habit, and it's not.
00:23Growing up with it is so hard because you want to be pretty,
00:26and you're destroying what makes you pretty to the public.
00:30I was 18, and I decided to shave my head.
00:34I've had it shaved for almost three years.
00:37I have no urge to pull.
00:40At first, it definitely wasn't a fashion statement. It was very utilitarian.
00:44But over time, I realized that it really worked for me.
00:47I'm an editorial and portrait photographer.
00:54I never would have photographed myself when I had hair.
00:58The hair had to come off, and then I wanted to find out who this new person was.
01:02It's one of the best ways to learn how to see what other people are seeing.
01:06People started commenting on my hair so much.
01:09Oh my god.
01:10Holy shit, man.
01:11You look amazing.
01:13I would never do that.
01:14It looks so good on you.
01:15I finally decided if they had a moment to listen, I would tell them about it.
01:19What's the point of them giving me this compliment if I'm not going to be real with them?
01:23It's not a cure-all.
01:25There's so many different facets of trick.
01:27There are people that pull out their pubic hair.
01:29There are people that pull out their armpit hair.
01:31People that pull out their eyelashes and eyebrows.
01:33People that pull out a hair and rub it on their lips because that feels good.
01:37I think if I grew my hair out today, I'd probably pull it out again.
01:41I'm trying to learn how to see myself overall.
01:44The hair has kind of brought me to that.
01:46I'm trying to learn how to see my body for what it is.
01:48I'm trying to learn how to see my work for what it is.
01:53I feel very confident about who I am as a person, and I feel confident about my hair,
01:58and I hope the rest kind of follows suit.
