00:12Going bathing suit shopping is like kind of a mild disaster. Constantly. Why is there nothing that fits me? Why
00:20is the lighting in here so bad? Oh my god I have cellulite. I mean I know I have cellulite
00:27but like I'm really good at forgetting that I have cellulite.
00:30My internal monologue when I'm trying on bathing suits is unfortunately pretty negative. Ah damn it. And like pulling and
00:38like trying to get something and then like realizing oh it's too small and like I look stupid and my
00:43stomach's big and fat. And then you're just tired and then you leave with nothing and then you just feel
00:48like you wasted your life. It's like I guess I'm going to the beach someday. That's what I was preparing
00:54for. That was supposed to be fun. This made me want to vomit.
01:01When I hear the phrase beach body I mean I don't think of me. Tall probably like tan. No body
01:09fat like you know what I mean like everything's like sucked and perfect.
01:15Some days you wake up and you're like oh my god I am banging like thank god. And then some
01:21days you wake up and you're like I well turns out I'm a monster piece of garbage and I didn't
01:26realize that.
01:28It can be definitely a way for me to torture myself.
01:32Do you learn from a young age that weight matters dude?
01:37Wow it looks like you have no chest. All of these images and ideas that you have about what other
01:43women look like supposedly.
01:46You will never be what you want to be. Sorry this is I'm going to get emotional because my mom
01:54is so great. She would talk to me about how she felt when she was younger.
01:58If I had a daughter I would just want to make sure that she felt confident in herself and not
02:04apologize and feel great about who she is and not think that being a woman or being a girl is
02:12somehow less than.
02:13Don't be afraid to de-sexualize yourself if that's how you feel.
02:22I think what we could do to make women have a better body image.
02:27Stop telling women that their worth is how they look.
02:31Representing the fact that there are so many types of women.
02:36That's why plus size bloggers and us girls we ought to be out here like girl love your body.
02:41I like um my skin color.
02:45I love my hips.
02:47I am an embodiment of Kate Bosworth.
02:51I don't know if I necessarily have a beach body but I'm going to be on that beach.
02:55Um yeah and oh that's like a nice little apple pie right there.
03:01But also wear sunscreen because I mean beach is very dangerous.
03:05Um yeah and this not too much.
03:05I don't know although I know that when people haven't even wanted nothing.
03:05I'll see you next time.
