00:00As far as like family or long-term, I think it would be cool to have a farm.
00:15Lovely.
00:16I think my purpose is just to find my overall happy.
00:21To be satisfied with what I'm doing with my time here.
00:25Make a difference.
00:26Starting out like in other people's lives, just that you know, and then hopefully on a grander scale is kind
00:32of what I envision my purpose to be.
00:34Wow. I don't know.
00:36I know it's hard.
00:37I don't know. I haven't thought about stuff like this before.
00:39You know, I want to love what I do and do what I love.
00:42Personally, I want to inspire people and motivate people to be their best selves because my spiritual journey has taken
00:48me to that point.
00:49My dream is to have a job.
00:53I want to be a pop star.
00:54Yeah, I want to be like a movie star.
00:57I would love to do everything.
00:59I think that Emma Watson said recently that she wants to be a renaissance woman and like paint and act
01:05and that's what I would like to do.
01:07And as far as like family or long-term, I think it would be cool to have a farm.
01:12For me, it was always to pass on life and like have lots of kids.
01:17We have five grandkids and I just really want to be the Nana that they hang out with, that they,
01:26you know, want to spend the weekend with.
01:29I want to go into my later years really contented with the life that I've lived.
01:37The goal of becoming like, you know, whatever that stardom is for you has kind of faded and it's more,
01:43I still, I still want things.
01:45I still have more focus in terms of my like career goals, but it's really about quality of life and
01:49enjoying the moments.
01:50And like, I'm very aware of time and I just, I want every moment that I have that's free to
01:56be filled with people that I love or an adventure that I want to do.
02:00Relationships have always been a big part of it, like family and friends and building a community.
02:07And that's sort of what I see my legacy being.
02:11I think that some people really wake up and they're like, I know the thing I care about most is
02:16getting married and having kids.
02:17And then there's some people that wake up and they're like, the thing I care about most is having a
02:22career.
02:22And then there's some people that have those like crazy big things.
02:25And I sometimes feel like lost because I don't have, like you said, like I don't have a thing where
02:29I wake up and I'm like, I know I'm going to cure cancer.
02:32I think a lot of the happiness and everything you want about building a life is like, if you find
02:36that person that you want to spend it with and you can't make anyone hang out with you.
02:42I literally worry about the fact that like, what if I, what if I don't meet someone, you know?
02:50I think the focus shouldn't be on, are you doing things the right way?
02:53Oh, you're this age, where's your baby?
02:54Where's your husband?
02:55It should be, well, how are you as a person?
02:57Because I feel like some people don't think about it, you know, and they just figure like these, there are
03:02all these almost steps that you have to go through in life.
03:05Like as a girl, you know, like get married and have a kid and, and then be a wife or
03:09a mom, you know?
03:11And I feel like, I don't know, you don't necessarily have to do that.
03:15There's like other purposes in life that you feel like you need to do or you could do.
03:19The only thing that worries me is having my passion go away.
03:24Yeah, I feel like when I was younger, the dream was, was the ambition and then they separated and it
03:29was like, well, I got to make a living.
03:31Right.
03:31My dreams can become my hobbies.
03:33Yes.
03:34And now there's more of a marriage between the two.
03:37Yeah.
03:37I think a lot of people give up on that sometimes.
03:40Yeah.
03:40Like they don't find it necessarily.
03:42Yeah.
03:42So, um.
03:43I think that's important too.
03:45Yeah.
03:45Because I, I don't really think of it as giving up, you know, as much as I think like you
03:51got to live your life and you got to pick what is valuable.
03:55And I think that changes.
03:56Say like 10 years in the future, my goal in life is just to love living life.
04:05I, that is such an exciting thought.
04:07I think about, um, how much a person changes in 10 years.
04:11And like when I think about 10 years ago, like where I was and what I was up to, it
04:15was a different life.
04:16If each month, each day, a little less scared, a little more excited than the last, a little more loving,
04:24better sister, better friend.
04:25I'm a little afraid of aging because I, um, I don't want to lose capacity.
04:33You know, I still want to be able to do what I want to do, but I should just be
04:38doing it now.
04:39I feel every age has its angst, its good points and its bad points.
04:45And, uh, as long as I can stay relatively healthy, I'm kind of happy I'm here.
04:55See you next time.
