00:02my now husband and I had just gotten engaged a month before I was diagnosed
00:07our relationship has really driven me to not accept what doctors and medical
00:13books and statistics really tell people because I want to get old with him you
00:18know you find like the love of your life and so the biggest thing was like I'm in
00:22it to win it like I said yes because I want to spend the rest of my life with
00:24this person and then you find out that the rest of your life might not be as
00:29long as you were planning my name is Ayana I have found a lump in my breast a
00:34few months before I'd actually gone to the doctor initially my doctor told me
00:38he thought you know it's probably nothing I'm really young I was 33 at the
00:41time the MRI had revealed that the cancer had moved to my liver and I was in fact
00:44stage 4 at that point being diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer three and a
00:48half years ago really put life into perspective work life got a little
00:52difficult what better way to sort of hit the reset button than to start over when
00:57you get a diagnosis like this you have a couple of choices right but like
01:01cancer's already done a ton of things to my life that suck but I'm not gonna
01:04allow it to make me unhappy it just can never have that grip I've always been
01:09the type of person that really cultivates a home that feels really warm and
01:13nurturing again whether it's for me or whether it's for you know me and my
01:18husband are for lots of friends I walk my cute little puggle named Bailey around the
01:22neighborhood and you know stretch my legs and try to really spend 15 20 30 minutes
01:26outside breathing in whatever the air might be I think beauty is different for
01:31everyone for me nothing about physical traits it's about something that people
01:36can feel the minute that you walk into a room I feel amazingly beautiful today
