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While Destiny cleans all the dishes from all her dinners past, she recorded a voiceover explaining what she's been busy doing for the past couple weeks. Destiny went to her friend's wedding in Kentucky, and they accumulated a new family member. She's having issues with a longtime friend but doesn't want to go into detail about it yet. Destiny is still looking for a job and had an interview recently. We head to the kitchen with Destiny as she whips up a batch of Ina Garten's brownies. Around the middle of the month, Destiny filmed a cooking video and recorded a follow-up to her childhood stories she told in a previous video. She fills us in on her dating history through the years, which was basically filmed and posted on YouTube, other than her first relationship before Amberlynn Reid. She begins in the summer of 2013 with Pookie, then Amberlynn, Dana, Lexus, three engagements and a divorce later, she's living with her secret girlfriend in Alabama. The conversation gets deeper when she reaches her relationship and breakup with Lexus. She made a terrible decision go cold turkey and it ended up in some bad choices. Lexus forgot about their first anniversary, something Destiny takes very seriously, then lied about it.
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00:01what's up guys in this video you'll see me doing my massive amount of dishes i have right now it's
00:07a little crazy i cleaned out our fridge of a bunch of leftovers it's literally just a cheeseburger
00:12bake it's really easy i'll leave the recipe for the mac sauce i make for it and the bake itself
00:18so in this vlog you'll see me make some pasta it was okay it wasn't like the greatest hit for
00:23us
00:23in the house so you know not sure if you want to make it you could definitely try it it's
00:27just the
00:28the viral recipe that's on tiktok the chocolate sauce that i make homemade i just use it for our
00:34coffee my cold brew pretty easy i do sweeten mine i make simple syrup it's very easy hey girl
00:40let's make sliders now but it's they just need a little bit longer oh
00:49and then our dishes kind of got behind because let me tell you what the past two weeks have been
00:54crazy
01:00the weekend of august 22nd we went to kentucky we left friday the 21st and we were there till
01:08monday my best friend got married that lives up there it was a good time we had a really good
01:13time actually my brother and my sister-in-law came up with us from tennessee and they stayed in the
01:19hotel with us in our room you know we just had a really good time i don't think i took
01:22any pictures
01:23with my brother and my sister-in-law and then of course i'm not going to show you my girlfriend
01:26so maybe not sorry
01:46so anyway the day we came back so that monday afternoon when we got back my sister called me
01:51when i'm about 10 minutes from my house which we were stuck in traffic which sucked but that's
01:56just how it goes where we live she's just asking how the trip went she went on a bachelorette trip
02:01to texas so we were just swapping stories about what we had done her husband starts calling her
02:05she's like hold on let me see what he wants he works in and out of like mississippi they live
02:0930 minutes from me but they're not in mississippi they're still in alabama she answers the phone for
02:13him and she calls me back within like five minutes and she's like listen he's like i just saw
02:19some kittens run across the street into like a drained ditch and the only reason he saw them is
02:24because one of them was white so he gets out and he's like i can't just leave them behind he
02:28checks
02:28on them there's two little black ones and a white one he's like i'm gonna bring them home and my
02:33sister's asking me what should she do because you know that's kind of how we got loki i mean he
02:38was
02:38abandoned you know we took care of him so she was like what should i do and i said well
02:42i have
02:42some kitten formula still here if you guys want to come get it it's not very much you might have
02:46to get more she plans on doing all that she gets them to her house or he does and she
02:51gets them
02:51situated they come and get the formula i give her advice and they're saying that one of them has some
02:56stuff coming out of his nose the white one has some gunk on her eye that just looks bad he
03:02said one
03:03of the black ones is a girl the white one is a girl and then that one of the black
03:06ones is a boy i
03:07you know wish them all the best because they're they're gonna call animal control they're gonna get it
03:11taken care of and i'm like you know do what you gotta do well then my sister was also just
03:15very
03:15emotional with the whole thing so she called me the next day and she's like i've been crying she
03:21said one of the black ones had died and i was like i'm so sorry and then she came out
03:25a little
03:26while later and called me again and said that when she went out there the white one was still
03:30cuddling the black one but it had also passed and she felt so bad she didn't know what to do
03:35she
03:35was afraid the white one was gonna go she was like with a baby i don't have the time to
03:39really
03:39like sit here and nurse this poor thing like can you please help me me and my girlfriend talk about
03:44it and we're like you know what we don't want to see something like this happen so we make
03:50arrangements and for my niece's birthday that was coming up they had to come over here and get some
03:54tables that we let them borrow they come over they get the tables and they bring me this kitten and
03:59oh
03:59my gosh you guys she's so tiny she's definitely bigger than loki was when we got him like loki was
04:05maybe two weeks old this kitten she's probably four weeks old we've had her a week now she was
04:10a little feral when we first got her like when we tried to get her she did that like little
04:14kitten
04:14hiss it kind of sounds like they're going you know whatever i had some eye ointment delivered for her
04:20same day i got her eye cleared up i don't have many pictures of her right now she really is
04:26the
04:26sweetest thing we named her artemis we do plan on keeping her i just can't tell my girlfriend
04:31knows sometimes i really didn't want a girl cat i was like i i'm okay with another oh my goodness
04:37did you guys hear that lightning it is coming down right now where i'm at well i'm at home but
04:41you
04:42know that was really loud i'm sure loki's gonna come running in here i got her eye cleared up we've
04:48had her about a week i can't tell my girlfriend no like i was saying i really only wanted it
04:52if it
04:52was gonna be a boy i didn't really want a girl but you know it's okay she fits right in
04:57i'm still
04:58giving her formula but i'm giving her formula with wet food and i started giving her a couple
05:04days ago a little bit of dry food mixed in it i do let it soak but she's already got
05:07all of her
05:08little teeth she walks really good she gets around really good she's already using the litter box which
05:13i have her where we had loki it's a big kennel it's big enough for her to like lay in
05:18there's a litter
05:18box in it do all the things and then our second bedroom has nothing in it it's pretty flat i
05:24let her
05:24and loki play in there now loki has all of his shots i've given them to him myself so i'm
05:29not
05:29worried about him getting sick and she's just still too young to get any that was crazy for that week
05:34and then i did have some drama go on between me and my best friend that actually lives really close
05:39to me here i actually cut ties with her on monday and today is friday so it's been a few
05:44days now i'm
05:45not really gonna get into the nitty-grit of this i mean she's not posting on tiktok or anything like
05:50that but i know that she's probably making it out to be like i was the problem i was never
05:55the
05:55problem i tried my best to keep things very civil between us but stuff happened i might get more into
06:01it in another video we'll just have to see i haven't felt good for a couple of days and then
06:06i had a job
06:06interview today and it actually went really well just a lot going on the past two weeks we've been
06:11so busy there's just been so many things we had my niece's birthday party she was so stinking cute
06:16and she had the best time they had a huge water slide and my sister took her down it a
06:21couple of
06:21times you know and she got all the stuff she wanted we did not bring her stuff that we got
06:27her
06:27because my car won't fit the kitchen that we set up for her whenever they bring the tables back
06:32that they borrowed from us they're gonna grab it and she'll have it i'm not really sure where my
06:36sister's gonna put it yet but she will have it and that's just my little update for you i'll see
06:41you soon love ya bye hey girl all right we're gonna be making in a garden brownie pudding i make
06:49it maybe not once a month but i do make it pretty often did write it down because i don't
06:52always
06:53remember exactly how to do things but we got it we'll need a large bowl and a medium bowl i
06:58prefer
06:58to make it in this glass dish just because i've tried doing it in like just a brownie pan
07:03and it just doesn't work and then you want four room temperature because these are not quite room
07:08temperature so they're just sitting there and then you'll need two sticks of butter but i need
07:12to melt all right let's get this melted first and i've got my butter in the microwave and then
07:17it will nope i haven't just preheated you'll preheat it to 325 then you're gonna want to lightly grease
07:23your pan all right i got our pan nice and buttered look at this butter dish we have two bucks
07:30at all
07:31ease of all places looks like we need to sift together the cocoa and the flour three fourths of a
07:36cup of
07:37cocoa powder just had to get more of this cocoa powder or cocoa powder in general we have like
07:43three containers over they barely have anything but it's and this is three fourths of a cup
07:53there we go
07:57then half a cup of flour
08:01we just sifted this can get messy if you're not watching the side so you want to keep it low
08:09it just makes it so much easier to mix because then it leaves out all these little
08:14cloves
08:16so here's what we're looking like after we got it all sifted and then we're gonna do this one now
08:24all
08:24we're gonna put in here is eggs and sugar and then it's gonna go on a medium to high whisk
08:30in the
08:30mixer for about five to ten minutes put two cups of sugar one
08:41yeah now i need sugar four room temperature eggs
09:02all right all right so you'll want to mix or whisk this until it's thick and light yellow so if
09:12that's
09:13five minutes or ten minutes whichever one you think is it but you just gotta watch it
09:18lock your mixer and then medium to high and then we just let it go all right so this is
09:24what you
09:24kind of want it to look like like let me see i'll show you how it's kind of it is
09:28thick i promise
09:30it's how thick but this is the color you want it too we'll add some vanilla we're just gonna
09:36splash that in there then we're just gonna throw the cocoa mixture in there
09:44and then you're gonna put it on low and just let it mix
09:52all right it's all combined now you just add the melted butter you're just gonna mix that until it's
09:58just combined still on low so this is what we're looking like this is the end of it so
10:06yeah it's all mixed together but not over mixed you don't want to over mix this now we're just
10:11going to pour the mixture into the pan
10:21there's what it's looking like so then you'll want to put it in
10:24a larger pan and then get a bunch of hot tap water so this is hot tap water she's my
10:30roommate
10:31and you'll just fill the bigger pan up till it's halfway up the glass
10:38need like a little bit more and then you'll just put it in the oven and it goes in for
10:43an hour in a
10:44garden brownie pudding hey girl i know a couple videos ago i talked about my childhood and into like
10:51my teenagehood my mom was actually three months pregnant with me when she met my dad and i did
10:59not know that until i was 21 i met my best friend that is still my best friend currently
11:04when i was four turning five she lived directly across the street from us my whole life and now
11:10we're only a street away from each other it's crazy it's just like being young again fun fact
11:14i got held back in second grade that was the year i got diagnosed with adhd i made the decision
11:18in fourth grade that i wanted to stay with my dad i broke my knee when i was in the
11:23eighth
11:23grade it was like i said a week into the school year i could kind of tell you my coming
11:27out story
11:27i turned 13 when i told my mom and she was like i knew it she told my dad my
11:32dad was like yeah i knew
11:33it i didn't get my driver's license till i was 18 so i thought i would continue on from that
11:38point
11:39i had a couple of girlfriends in high school probably like my freshman year i mean i talked to a
11:44few people
11:44but i didn't have a real serious relationship until part of the way into my junior year i just
11:49thought that it would probably be a good idea to like show you some relationship dynamics through
11:54the years we'll start with my first real serious relationship and try to get to now like i said it
11:59was my junior year so that was 2012. she lived in california so we didn't date like normal there's a
12:05lot of
12:06dates oh yes she wasn't very big on youtube yet i didn't even really know that she had a youtube
12:22when me and her started talking um so youtube was pretty kind of like irrelevant
12:28it look at you all cute and
12:37we met on tumblr
12:44this month's box is by far better than last month's box like oh my god every single one of these
12:49things
12:49are freaking delicious the only day that i have completely off would be wednesdays which
12:54so does destiny so it works out wild i don't even know if some people even know what tumblr is
13:00anymore we dated for a while we met each other quite a few times the first time being the summer
13:06of 2013 i was at my mom's actually in kentucky she stayed at my mom's for about three weeks i
13:11didn't
13:11see her again until i graduated so that would have been may of 2014 so almost a year not seeing
13:17each
13:18other and then i actually went to california with her after i graduated and i was there pretty much the
13:23whole summer i think i came back right after my birthday i don't know most of the way through
13:26july but i was there from like the end of may till like i said right after my birthday
13:30her birthday's on the 13th today is destiny's birthday happy birthday baby thank you my crystal
13:35baby it's time to wake up
13:40my baby is so cute are you ready to get up for the exciting day
13:49it's so cute when you sleep
13:53rise and shine actual good morning to you guys i'm just getting ready for the day we're going to
14:00bush garden he's looking at me like uh-uh honey child crystal's gonna be so scared oh that looks so
14:06much fun
14:07it's coming it's coming oh my god they've been on lots of other rides but i haven't filmed the whole
14:16time it's so freaking hot i'm like legit sweating right now sweating like who sweats anymore i'm so hot
14:23you guys we're going on the train yay we're on the train train train train
14:34i'm excited currently in line oh yeah
14:42i've already started
14:47we must go back outside the walls
14:53there's gonna be fireworks tonight i still feel like the house of terror at disneyland
14:57i mean it's a thousand times taller and i did that but i knew i would fit on that but
15:03this one's
15:03different i don't think i'd fit on it but holy crap i'm humiliated i'm sad i'm embarrassed i was
15:11in line to go on a ride i'm always nervous when i'm about to go on a ride because most
15:16of the time
15:17i don't fit like you guys know so i wanted to give it a chance you know those things that
15:20you have to
15:21like walk through for it to kind of scan you as a person like those metal bars well i didn't
15:27fit in
15:28it i couldn't fit in it whatsoever i couldn't even walk through it it was really embarrassing there was
15:33no way for me to get past so the lady's like well turn around and come through the exit i
15:37mean
15:37the whole thing was the most embarrassing thing in the world so i just left and i told them i'm
15:44just
15:44not going to go on it i'm just so ashamed what hurts the most is that i was supposed to
15:50go on it with
15:50crystal and now i can oh yeah funnier
16:08i mean there was a lot of learning involved with this relationship i didn't know
16:12a whole lot better than what i had going for me i mean we were pretty good for the most
16:17part but
16:17there was some controlling which is crazy because we lived you know over a thousand miles away from
16:22each other but i definitely don't regret anything it was a good relationship for the most part
16:27unfortunately you guys do know how this one ended once i graduated and i started working she came and
16:32saw me for christmas and we were together for a few weeks like in person and then she went back
16:38home i was basically at the point of my life where i wanted to move in with her and us
16:43really start
16:44like our lives she was in college and working we had talked about like once she finally
16:49graduated her moving i just knew i didn't really think i wanted to move all the way to california
16:53and be out there with nothing we kept saying that she would move it just kind of started to seem
16:58like
16:58she wasn't going to be serious about it i had been in this same relationship i had matured i mean
17:02we
17:02were together from the time i was right at 17 till i was that would have made me at least
17:0819 yeah we all
17:10know how this ends destiny saved me from a dark dark place like crystal and i
17:18we decided to break up i got on an app that i was checking because i was catfished at one
17:24point
17:25whatever i've told that story on amrah lynn's channel you can see that the app was who's here
17:29i had a previous account on it that got all messed up and catfished and so i was just checking
17:35to make
17:35sure i still wasn't on there she sent me a message first i did she's cute she was cute she
17:43is cute
17:44and i did end up meeting amber lynn on there we started talking on april 10th yeah we started
17:50talking on april 10th so it kind of happened quickly everything but that's okay i did pursue her
17:56therefore i cheated on my girlfriend before that with amber lynn amber lynn is the one that told her
18:02which props to her destiny said how i messaged her ex from california it was spooky i messaged
18:08her to apologize because i didn't know she had a girlfriend like i said i never come from a bad
18:12place even at that time it's kind of late at night right now and i kind of just wanted to
18:20end my vlog
18:20real quick i didn't even want to end my vlog i'm going through something right now and i'm just feeling
18:26kind of like i just want to shut the world out you ever have those times where you literally just
18:31don't want to talk to anyone and you just want to curl up in a ball and cry well that's
18:35me right
18:36now so i'm just having one of them moments i messaged her i wish i still had the messages and
18:41i said i am so sorry i had no idea destiny is a cheater she is a liar it needed
18:45to happen i just
18:46didn't know how to deal with it it was just a crazy situation it happened it's whatever and then of
18:53course you guys know i was with amber lynn you saw the whole relationship i had with amber lynn i
18:58just
18:58wish that i would be her wife one day because that's how it was supposed to be but maybe i
19:03guess
19:04not i don't have anything else to tell you guys about her it just is what it is you saw
19:08our
19:08relationship i never cheated on amber lynn destiny is a cheater whether it be physically
19:13emotionally that's how we met when she was cheating on a girl wow you lied about destiny
19:18cheating on you i did not lie about destiny cheating on me the whole time i did not think
19:22that she physically cheated on me i did not think that she emotionally cheated on me it wasn't until
19:26recently she finally was like yeah i did emotionally cheat and that's when i had to be like oh wow
19:32okay
19:32she did that's not a lie she finally told me that she did i mean i have admitted to emotionally
19:39cheating
19:39on amber lynn i will say i know that she's told you guys this but i did reach out to
19:45my ex before her
19:46a few times while we were together just because i feel like that's normal what people do when you
19:51start to have issues in a new relationship i don't know you seek comfort in what you knew before i
19:56guess
19:56is what i was doing i didn't know what i deserved love wise and i was dealing with the control
20:02of amber
20:02lynn and i was just trying to find comfort in some sort of something that i wasn't getting in the
20:08relationship between me and amber lynn i was seeking comfort from amber lynn it was 1 a.m and you
20:13left
20:14your partner at walmart at 1 a.m red flag red flag red flag and all while she's still talking
20:20to her
20:21ex it was pookie behind my back no wonder why she called me pookie because she was talking to pookie
20:29behind my back like she was causing me stress and you know all of that she's gonna give destiny a
20:37prescription for acid reflex so that could be it and she's hoping that it helps and if it does help
20:43then obviously that's the issue and if it doesn't help then obviously that's not the issue i think
20:48amber lynn was stressing me out a little too much destiny is still gonna go to her like family doctor
20:52but i was crying for nothing and now i feel like crying because i was crying for nothing like i'm
20:57an
20:57emotional wreck it's messed up on my part i know to reach out to an ex you can consider that
21:02cheating
21:02if you want to i don't because i wasn't like pursuing her as a relationship i was just venting to
21:07her because amber lynn literally all but isolated me i didn't have anyone to vent to with like she
21:13didn't hardly let me see my family i didn't really have friends and when i did hang out with those
21:17friends she had to hang out with them too like it was a whole thing and then dana became friends
21:21while me and amber lynn were together yes but i never cheated on her with dana i never pursued
21:25dana in that way until me and and dana me and amber lynn broke up it's more so like something
21:33going on internal with destiny true story this is the first place destiny and i ever hung out
21:52we are at the laundromat
21:58this is so small
22:06is there a bathroom on the side of the feet yeah where is it at
22:14over there we can't hear this yeah her neighbor
22:18well we talked like talk talked for like a month you're a lie i just need to be grateful that
22:26there's
22:27the bathroom at all you want to write her name on it no no it's a graffiti and love you
22:34baby
22:37and then i explained what happened between me and dana in another video you guys saw that the
22:43laundry mat that she shows that we're being filmed at that's the one i went to with dana and her
22:48mom and
22:49it was the only 24 hour laundry mat that was close to us and it wasn't even like right next
22:53to our
22:53house there was plenty right by our house but none of them were 24 hours this was around the time
22:57dana
22:57and i had become good friends this is i guess the point towards the end of november she quit talking
23:02to
23:02me and like i said we didn't talk till after me and april and broke up besides like here and
23:06there at work
23:06she started doing a lot of weigh-ins here because she got a new scale okay okay this is really
23:11me about
23:11to get on my new scale we're downstairs instead of upstairs so okay hold on hello
23:32at this point in time dana and i hadn't spoken since like before thanksgiving and then we still
23:37weren't talking at this point it wasn't the day after me and amberlyn broke up but like the second
23:43day it was the day after i changed all my social media that robots r2d2 and i got that for
23:47destiny
23:48for christmas this is my absolute still number one favorite she said i might change for all this
23:52stuff but this is my favorite that's what is on her twitter it's r2d2 she's obsessed with star wars
23:58dana actually texted me and she just said hey she had a boyfriend i saw on facebook that dana and
24:04her
24:04boyfriend had broke up and i just casually texted her and the next day i texted her and just said
24:10how do
24:10you feel about me like what are your feelings towards me basically and then she didn't text me back
24:15for three days she texted me back finally on like that third day and she said that she had feelings
24:21for me and had had feelings for me since november when her and i were like just friends
24:32and that's why she quit talking to me i told her i felt the same way though i told her
24:37how i felt kind
24:38of in november how like i really just wanted to get to know her better as a friend and then
24:42like now we
24:43had the opportunity to be more than that i said i kind of had thought about that before but i
24:48was
24:48with amber when you know like it just wasn't the right time clearly and we went on our first date
24:52on the 27th of january i think we got off at like two in the morning so it was basically
24:57the 28th i was
24:58holding on to that little bit of hope you know destiny's gonna realize destiny's gonna realize and
25:03i think she just realized she is happier not being in a relationship with me is destiny seeing someone
25:10else no she's not um when she broke up with me she was very stern and saying she just does
25:15not
25:15want to be in a relationship she wants to be single she doesn't want to worry about anyone else and
25:19she
25:19wants to worry about herself no she has not seen anyone else the way me and lexus my ex-wife
25:24now met
25:25i had to move back to florida after me and dana broke up i thought i was just gonna be
25:29single and
25:30just try to figure some stuff out so i was just going to be single be mingling a single freaking
25:36pringle and so i got on a few dating apps i talked to a few people one of them we'll
25:40call her daisy i
25:41met this girl i explained what had just happened to me like a traumatic breakup a move all these things
25:47i guess we kind of really hit it off about a week in she told me that she had a
25:52boyfriend actually and
25:54that i would just be like her girlfriend if we like pursued that in that way and i was just
25:59like you
25:59know whatever i'm down like i wasn't trying to be in anything serious anyway so i was like whatever
26:03we kind of fizzled out you know it happened whatever i was on a dating app i met lexus we
26:08went on a date sometimes when you go on a first date with somebody you're like wow like i want
26:13to spend a lot more time with this person and that's what you do like sometimes you just meet
26:17somebody and you want to be inseparable for a little bit and that's just kind of what we did like
26:21we
26:21both thought that this was going to be like a one-time date see where it goes and it just
26:27be over
26:27but you see what it turned into i will say the first year of our relationship was so rocky i've
26:34never explained this in another video but did you and lexus break up earlier in the relationship we
26:39broke up twice actually in our relationship well it wasn't even a we it was a me i broke up
26:46with her
26:46in that first few months even probably like four or five times because i was confused i was like i
26:52don't know if i want this serious relationship i was scared i was like i don't know what to do
26:59do i want to be like this tied down again or do i want to give myself time i definitely
27:04should
27:05have given my time between amberlynn and dana i should have definitely given myself time between
27:09the girl i was with before amberlynn and amberlynn it was spooky i should have given myself more time
27:14between dana and lexus but it is what it is now we would break up for probably like a week
27:19or two
27:20then we would get back together it was a lot and i had a lot of processing to do with
27:24it and i i mean
27:25i tried in the end i was like you know what she had never really been in a very serious
27:30relationship
27:31like this so we are kind of hoping to get married on friday the 13th in october this year
27:40i was like if you're ready to put it all in i'll put it all in and that's what we
27:44did and we
27:44didn't even move in together till almost our one year anniversary and then on our one year we
27:49actually proposed to each other it was so funny like i had the video posted on tick tock but i
27:53took it down but i mean i was not expecting that like i have always been the one to propose
27:57you
27:57guys know i'm a serial proposer if you will um i'm not afraid to be single destiny got me
28:04a promissory a promissory
28:10we separated in july and me and my current girlfriend didn't even meet or speak until
28:17september but she did the same thing and i mean it was sweet whatever i was on an antidepressant
28:24i was on some anxiety medicine i was on a lot of things i didn't think they were working anymore
28:29like i had been on them for probably like three years i got put on all this medicine when my
28:33mom
28:33had passed so i had been on it for a while i was trying to get in with new psychological
28:38services
28:38to figure that stuff out because my primary was like all i can do is up it or change it
28:44to another
28:44antidepressant i was really thinking that i wasn't really having problems with depression and anxiety
28:49anymore i was thinking it was more along the lines of my adhd i didn't know like what i should
28:54do like what coping mechanisms to use that sort of thing whenever they told me it would be three
28:58to six months to get in with somebody i just took it upon myself to cut myself cold turkey and
29:03i was
29:04on wellbutrin i don't know if anyone has any knowledge of that we're talking about her medicine
29:07how she's been taking it how it's working for her the difference between her and becky when becky
29:11took it do you mind if i say the name of it everyone knows on picture oh okay it's wellbutrin
29:15before i was getting ready to start buying becky warned me about wellbutrin made me very moody like
29:21crabby yeah i was mad all the time like very irritable so it made me weary of taking it seeing
29:26the
29:26difference of where amber is taking it this is where it was like nice to hear because i didn't
29:32know that they could see a difference in me he said that i'm less crabby your moods go
29:39yeah they don't do that anymore it's not really a roller coaster of how you're feeling you can one
29:43second you're like this and the next you know you're just like
29:48i'm just like over it i'm like just get on my nerves
29:53but i was on the higher dose of wellbutrin and i just quit i spiraled and i ended up
29:57actually cheating on lexus we weren't married yet things were rocky between us i broke up with her
30:03probably like four or five times we would break up for probably like a week or two then we would
30:08get back together we were working opposite schedules it wasn't in person cheating like
30:12i didn't pursue someone and meet them and all that it was actually the first person i was talking
30:17about a moment ago daisy is what we'll call her me and her just started talking again we had always
30:22kind of stayed in touch but not in that way because she knew i was with lexus like we talked
30:27like
30:27friends and then when one thing led to another and then lexus actually figured out that i was talking
30:33to her in that way by looking at my apple watch and she showed up at my work she told
30:38me she was
30:38bringing me lunch and that's just something that she would never do like she wasn't that kind of
30:43person i was like oh okay and then i got in the car and she was just kind of like
30:47hey you know
30:48give me your phone and i was like um for what and she was like i already saw the messages
30:53on your watch
30:54like i just i just want to see and i i didn't let her see i just went ahead and
30:57deleted everything
30:58i was like you know like what are we gonna do are we gonna work on this because i had
31:02been trying to
31:03talk to her about these things before this happened like i had been trying to talk things out but at
31:08this point we lived together i didn't know what was going to happen i thought our relationship was
31:12honestly going to be over and i was like kind of freaking out she said you know i do really
31:17want
31:17to work this out let's work this out i cut contact with this person we worked on things and we
31:22were
31:23engaged at this point so i was like you know do you want to prolong the engagement what do you
31:27want to
31:27do she was like no like because we still wanted to get married on our two-year anniversary of dating
31:33and i said okay but we just have to work on things and that is what we did we worked
31:37we got
31:37a lot stronger things were great we get married things are still great we got out of our apartment
31:43and moved into a bigger house it's not just that she was depressed our first wedding anniversary mind
31:48you it's almost like she forgot she didn't say anything about it she didn't try to do anything
31:53about it mine and my girlfriend's two month anniversary is coming up and i plan on getting
31:57her something you know each month because that's just how i am destiny officially asked me to be her
32:02girlfriend on fourth of july so today is destiny and eyes one month anniversary yes we celebrate
32:08monthly anniversaries it's cute and it's fun every milestone matters right tell everybody what today
32:14is it's our two month anniversary two months last week i was 4 17.8 today i weighed in at
32:224 20.4 so
32:25we just got back from dinner we went to applebee's i had a drink there i'm feeling
32:30literally just got taco bell it's only our anniversary for like half an hour more and you've
32:36been a brat oh i'm the brat you have been you had to have taco bell all right all right
32:42enough of this
32:43no more eating out in the month of december i know i said that we are going all the way
32:48to alabama i guess
32:49we're gonna go out to eat to dinner our anniversary was on the fourth and we didn't get to do
32:54anything for
32:55that figure today treat destiny with a little 4d star wars i can tell you're excited today is the
33:04first day that i am going vegan i am super super nervous hello all right i made a feast great
33:14and yes
33:14it was me cooked it chopped it all that so so i just weighed myself and i weigh 470.0
33:22exactly on the dot
33:23when i get off at work and nighttime comes like i throw everything out the bag and it's very
33:28frustrating i just got home from work i'm gonna do a little bit of hacking this is the room that
33:32got
33:32flooded and stuff like yeah we're in the middle of still trying to figure all that out
33:46yesterday was may 4th may the force be with you or what was it may the fourth be with you
33:54baby may the fourth be with you it's the star wars thing like yesterday was destiny and i's
33:5910 month anniversary she had to work all day and this and that so we didn't get to do anything
34:04for
34:04it so today she's gonna take me somewhere that i've been wanting to go to it is a real sushi
34:10restaurant
34:11this is our room there's still a lot of destiny's mom's stuff in here put that in the attic like
34:15it's
34:16not normal stairs they're like almost like attic stairs so it's really like hard we're gonna have
34:22some dinner soon i think we're having a hot dog chili bake or something i don't know chili dog bake
34:26chili dog bake her mom gets kind of creative with cooking oh and i forgot to show you guys the
34:31anniversary gifts and yesterday's vlog but today if we remember i'll show you but yeah we're in
34:37goodwill right now this is the furniture section it's kind of like
34:48destiny got me a promise ring a promise ring so we are going to lexington it's just like
34:57what i'm used to like i'm not used to like this middle of the nowhere crap so i'm super excited
35:03we're gonna go to the cheesecake factory what are you making oh my gosh that's so cool
35:11enjoy bae enjoy
35:17the art is ruined so you guys technically in real life haven't seen me for a month as i deleted
35:25them
35:25it said are you sure you want to delete 376 clips i had a month worth of vlogs on there
35:31hey guys happy
35:32october 14 15 months ago destiny asked me to be her girlfriend yeah we celebrate the months so it's
35:38our 15th month anniversary we celebrate the months because not only do the years matter but also the
35:43months matter today's dinner is nothing special thin whole grain pasta playing the lazy route with
35:49some classical traditional basil cesto so literally that is all that's going in here today hey guys happy
35:58november 4th if you guys don't know today is destiny and i's anniversary month wise it's been how many
36:05months today is our 16th month anniversary yes we count the months i say that every single month this
36:11is our new kitty cat oh my gosh rarity grace baby are you going to around there it is here
36:23is charla she's my bff
36:27and here is destiny she's my gff
36:33yes which f is she again right oh my god i'm so hungry oh thank you you're such a gentleman
36:41such a gentleman
36:43oh you too okay so destiny's gonna shove this in her mouth and she wants me to film it
37:00i just want to say today is destiny's anniversary it's our 17th month anniversary 17 months oh my god
37:08i love her so much nothing could break us we're strong strong as ever just love her so much oh
37:15my god
37:16i just can't get over it destiny even said it's no good but she's about to head off to work
37:22so i
37:22wish she was here to enjoy this with me this looks so good oh my gosh i am excited cooking
37:27with amber
37:28lynn i woke up today with the goal of no crying i have cried every single day since destiny broke
37:33up with me and i am just like so over crying i'm so over feeling sorry for myself and feeling
37:40pain
37:41and i'm just over like everything okay so i'm about to go out tonight i'm going on a little
37:54friendscation i don't even know i got invited to go just a little bit away from where i live nowhere
37:59like super awesome or important but we're gonna stay in like a hotel it's like a suite it's gonna be
38:04for one night so we are here selfie time though it's actually really nice so many people requested
38:14amberlynn you need to upload monday through friday you need to upload more i'm gonna try to do that
38:18oh i have to show you guys something see this right here that's because i am girlfriend goals
38:24so tomorrow my girlfriend is actually picking me up and i'm gonna stay at her place for the first time
38:28ever so i'm kind of excited because usually she comes here our one month anniversary a month we've
38:34been together will be the ninth so i got her these roses she lied to me and said that she
38:40ordered a
38:41bunch of stuff for me off of amazon and that it would just come after our anniversary when i spent
38:46the
38:46last like 20 i had on a gift for her and i wrote a really sweet note with it we
38:51had just moved like
38:52we were broke so i was like you know whatever i'll spend my last little bit of money on a
38:56gift and i'll
38:57write a really just sweet note and that is what i did
39:07what is this
39:13i can't with you
39:14wait hold on oh my god come here read that first all right hold this i look like a hot
39:26mess
39:28you want to read out loud it ain't nothing long or nothing i love you the most you're cute i
39:38was not
39:38expecting this
39:39oh my god
39:41okay hold on
39:42oh my god
39:48this is nothing long okay here we go wait hold on workers are crying just do it
40:01stop just do it
40:04okay there's so much about us that feels so right i like that we're easy together whether we're doing
40:07something we planned or just hanging out i like that we care about the same thing laugh at the same
40:10stuff and see so much the same way and even when we don't i really want to know your point
40:13of view
40:13because you have a wonderful way of looking at the world i like that you make me feel happy and
40:16okay maybe a little dizzy sometimes you know i'd really like to spend more time with you just to
40:19see where this goes i'm not in any hurry in fact i like our pace easy and natural i'm just
40:23saying
40:23that i like us and how this feels i hope you do too i love you with all my heart
40:25destiny xoxo
40:26when the red rose dies that's when i'll stop loving you
40:31oh they're so cute
40:35smell them oh i get it smell them
40:40oh they smell so good i've never gotten flowers before and the roses
40:46i didn't get anything she told me she ordered something off amazon i looked on her amazon and it
40:50said she hadn't placed an order in three months she lied to me and told me that amazon told her
40:54it got
40:54lost there was just so much going on that i just didn't understand why we were doing so good to
40:59it's almost like she gave up like we got into a bigger better place and she just gave up i
41:05didn't
41:06know what to do i always told myself i would never get divorced i would always try to work things
41:10out but
41:11it just it didn't happen for us i tried for so long to help her in any way i could
41:18i tried for so
41:19long to work on us i did everything i could to become a better person i got in with that
41:24psychological
41:25service i got myself on the right meds i went to therapy i did everything that i possibly could and
41:32right in the middle of us deciding to get divorced i was going to the gym three times a week
41:37i was
41:37working on myself because it was like i wasn't getting anything from the other side of my relationship
41:42so i was working on myself it didn't matter what i did it just seemed like we were at an
41:47end i
41:48hate to say that because again i never wanted to get divorced i really was trying to make things
41:52work sometimes you can't help somebody you can do all you can to help them but sometimes they
41:58just have to help themselves that's really what it came down to it wasn't necessarily her depression
42:04and all she has a lot of other health concerns i'm not going to get into her health concerns with
42:08you guys there was that going on she was lying to me about the smallest things all the time it
42:13made
42:13no sense to me why she would have to lie to me like i never lied to her as soon
42:17as she asked me
42:18about the cheating incident i was upfront about her with everything she had full access to my phone
42:23all the time i didn't have any secrets from her like we genuinely had the best relationship after
42:29that happened because we both put in the effort it's like after so long she quit putting in that
42:34effort too and it was just me if you've ever been in a relationship where you're putting in a lot
42:38of
42:38work and the other person isn't like what do you do especially you know after you're married what do
42:43you do i didn't deserve that i was also at a point in my life where i knew what i
42:47deserved i know what
42:48i deserve that wasn't it i wasn't waiting around for someone to finally change that is the whole thing
42:54at least i'm being honest with you guys i'm not lying about it i just never came on here and
42:58said
42:58anything about it just because i mean it's not something i'm proud of but it does factor into some
43:03of our relationship but now you guys know a little bit more and then i also don't think i
43:07mentioned what i was doing in this video before i started talking but i'm making a breakfast pizza
43:12all right love you girl bye