00:00he was threatening to leave me if i wouldn't have with him and he would want to put a lot
00:05of
00:06pressure on me etc and then unfortunately on the 1st of april i remember it was a friday evening
00:12i was raped by him and that was really difficult because again i carried already a lot of trauma
00:19within that's not the way that i would have thought that my virginity would have been taken
00:23and especially not by someone that you loved at the time and i just remember when it happened
00:29i was shaking um i remember there was a over my face and i just remember looking up to the
00:36ceiling
00:36and i was literally trembling i was shaking like my legs just couldn't stop like i was really scared
00:41i screamed i remember him just getting up and just shouting at me and saying like are you gonna leave
00:47me like this like he didn't care about how i felt it was more about his desires being satisfied and
00:55in that moment that not being the case um was all that was on his mind in that moment
01:01that's the Queer
01:01that may be so good
