00:00It takes you a while and you feel off, you don't feel like yourself, but, you know, women are so
00:06resilient, and that's the incredible thing about them, and I think I'm all the stronger for it, and I think
00:12I'm a better mom because of it, because you never take that connection for granted.
00:16It was so devastating that the thing that I was looking forward to most in my life ended up being
00:21this very complicated, just really depressing situation where I loved my child with all of my heart, and yet when
00:29I was in a room with him, I just wanted to disappear.
00:44I didn't know what was wrong with me, and nobody had ever talked to me about the possibility of it,
00:48just kind of a numbness and a lack of interest and a lack of feeling yourself, and I think it's
00:54so important for women to know that it happens, it's common, and there's nothing wrong with them,
01:02and they're not a bad mother.
01:04The scariest part in the world for me was looking at my daughter and truly not feeling connected at all,
01:14feeling I could just walk out the room, out of the room, and never really come back, and she'd probably
01:19be better off.
01:20All I've ever wanted were children. Since I was a child, I knew I wanted to be a mom. Then
01:25it happens, and all of a sudden, this devastating emotion overtakes you.
01:29If I could share anything with anyone that's going through it, it would be to encourage them to seek help
01:34and reach out a little earlier than I did.
01:36What helped me get through it is I just got out. I got out, I did some research, and also,
01:41ladies, moms, realize that it's a lot more common than you think.
01:44It doesn't mean you're weak if you have postpartum depression.
01:47You're actually stronger once you identify it and get the help you need.
